It’s not that I’m having a down day, because I’m not. But I’m not super excited about anything either. I’m gonna go to the gym today after I do the dishes. I don’t have rehearsal tonight. Think I need to change something already. I miss my piano by the way. I have one at my mom’s, the one I bought while in BLurbank is in storage, I don’t think I have any room here at my dadda’s for it. Well, definately not in the room I have – maybe in Smurfs room, but I don’t want to take up HIS space – no deals. But back to me wanting to change something. Maybe my hair, I have the new Alanis CD – thank you plantboy again, so I could listen to that even more than I do, I’d buy something but I don’t think I should, nor do I really have the means to do so. But I do have a second interview tomorrow at 2pm, so that’s good. Send good thoughts my way, I DO need a job.

I successfully introduced Michael (McKinney, some of you know him from Sapphire Moon, he’s also in Angry Housewives) to Toy Story & Toy Story 2. And of course he LOVED them. HELLO! Who doesn’t? Who doesn’t love PIXAR. Thank you A bugs life, Toy Story and 2, Monsters Inc, FINDING NEMO!!!! And I believe this year is The Incredibles ( or something like that) hhhmm….yay for things like that.

Anways, so here is a song by my future husband that seems to relate to me today. It of course will not take the place of my FAVORITE “St. Patricks Day” But my thoughts on it, also follow.

Tracing

Do you ever get the feeling
That we started in the middle?
Or have you ever had the sense
That we’ve been lying just a little?
I mean come on
It’s not like we’ve known ourselves that long

And I can’t say I really blame you
For being bored with the beginning
Always staring at the score
To figure out whos barely winning
But don’t you know
There is a reason strong move slow

And I’m okay
If you’re okay with wasting time
But when you trace
You always see the bottom line

We are tracing
I hope you know
We are tracing
And if you want to know the moment
I knew that I was still alone
I found I never learned your number
I only stored it in my phone
You’d think by now
I’d know the shape of calling home

And I’m okay
If you’re okay with wasting time
But when you trace
You always see the bottom line

We are tracing
I hope you know
We are tracing
Were both alone
We are tracing
We are tracing

Did you ever get the feeling
That we started in the middle?
Or have you ever had the sense
That we’ve been lying just a little?
I mean come on
It’s not like we knew ourselves that long

My interpretation:
How perfect is something like saying when you trace you see the bottom line. So really we’re talking about encompassing something in order to SEE that bottom line. Whether its about love, life, work, friends, anything. John of course throws in the verse about only storing a number in a phone not memorizing it……….do you do that? I do. I can’t say I know many people numbers. I know what memory you are on my phone but not the number. So I guess that’s saying where does the tracing of the line come in handy? If I don’t trace that line around you in my brain, my heart then I could very easily miss place and lose what’s important to me. THAT would be no deals. And I guess my favorite part is “its not like we knew ourselves that long” I mean what I’ve known “myself” for 25 years, but I still am many a time unable to explain a feeling, or an emotion or compare what’s going on with me to anything that has gone on before. But at the same time I’m feeling things and unable to explain them, my closest most dearest friends are ok with that, they are ok with just sitting around – wasting time. So thank you to my friends for who you are, and who I am because of you.

But then again, we relate to songs differently – so, are you tracing?