Aiyani Mersai

I have so much I want to say.  So much that is on my mind right now, and I have no energy left in me to say it.  I am exhausted mentally and emotionally.  I want to just close my eyes and write but if I keep them closed too long, I start to cry–again.  I’m so sad.  And angry.  I thought I was doing better.  Moving forward.  Just to be set back again.  Haven’t I taken enough bullets?  And isn’t it supposed to be a nicer time of year.