I cried today for apparently no reason. Yah. Cried. Then, I laughed because I was crying. I imagine it was for a combination of factors. Factors I don’t care to discuss currenlty. I called my mom, we are very much alike so she understands my random stupidy, or random tears, and – THAT DOESN’T MEAN I’M CALLING MY MOTHER RANDOM OR STUPID – it just means we are alot alike so she understands what I’m feeling when I feel like….this.
And FYI – No tickets for the John PRIVATE concert next week. To keep you updated I’ve been: 23, 87, 11, 46, 91, 15, 36, 78, 3, 33, 30, 54, 64 and 89. Yes when it’s busy I keep hitting redial. yes if I get a number like 3 I call again. Yes I’ve expressed my pain and sorrow to my favorite DJ Skip Kelly. Just because I talk to him alot doesn’t mean I get free stuff. Doesn’t mean I can “cheat the system.” I hope this answers questions. My question still remains “WHEN DO I WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” p.s. the people who win are making me mad, they don’t seem excited enough like they just got, oh I don’t know a set of screwdrivers at their employee luncheon. (by the way I did and that’s why that’s funny). Thank you to all who are routing for me. I will keep trying, and we will see what happens.
I’m in need of Food Therapy or Retail Therapy and it’s HORRIBLE not having the leisure or luxury rather to just go out and do that. I am still breathing. I am still struggling. I can’t believe I did it, but I actually asked for help financially and thank you – you know who you are. I hate my life, no I don’t hate it – I just don’t like what’s happening in it right now. But “it will all work out” “it’s gonna pass” “this builds character” “I’m being tested” “a time for everything and everything in it’s time” bla bla bla, wah wah wah yah yah yah. Someone tell me something I haven’t heard, or something I don’t know. ANYTHING??? ANYONE???
My eyes hurt from lack of sleep and crying. Stupid Girl, sometimes it’s lame being a girl……..and NO it’s not “that time of the month” for ALL of you wondering. So that’s not why i’m so sensitive, or crying or whatever. Come up with a different diagnosis……..something creative, something again that maybe I haven’t heard before.