I am the biggest hypocrite, been undenyably jealous…..

1. Fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position.

2. Resentful or bitter in rivalry; envious

Someone told me that I had the ability to make them jealous. It was one of the random moments where I stopped laughing and just sat back and thought about that one. You’d think that in this crazy random world, power WOULD be everything. Money, Power – all that shtuff. And I felt like for a second I was given this so called power, and I would totally RULE!, and then I felt sad. Because I wouldn’t want someone to do that to me. And admitting to something even REMOTELY close to jealousy puts that someone at a very vulnerable state. And that just adds to the effect of the power they just gave away. So I guess I’m saying there are good guys and bad guys when it comes to the jealousy thing. And I dont’ want to be the bad guy – Even if it was just a smidgen of time where, and it wasn’t even a big deal. It could be, and no one wants to feel like that. I know I don’t. And I’m jealous all the time without people knowing, imagine what they’d say or do to me if they DID know. It’s just in our blood to be destructive – but I don’t know why, and I hope I would never use my “power” for evil.

I think we’re due for a toy talk. more to come on that.

Who can guess the song/artist where the subject title of this lj comes from?

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Posted on June 2, 2004, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.

  1. A good quote….
    I can never remember where it came from originally…
    “Only by having the power to do evil, and actively choosing not to, can we truly do good.”

  2. Jealousy
    Is a funny thing….but you know, you make me jealous all the time. It’s not a bad thing to be able to make people jealous…it just means that people will strive to do what it is you make them jealous for….
    did that make any sense?

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