Another day, another try. I have gone back and forth with my weight issues for 10 years now. I get in a good place with my eating and exercising then stop. No idea why and it takes me a few weeks to get back on the wagon, just so I can complain 3 weeks later that if I hadn’t stopped for 3 weeks I would be at 6+ weeks by now.
sigh. I’m not angry with myself. I actually don’t eat terribly. We don’t really have fast food, maybe once in a while when its too late to cook, and we don’t have food in the fridge anyway. I know I don’t eat enough veggies and fruits. shakes head. I just want instant gratification! I need a better goal. I need something to shoot for that is motivating enough to help me make better choices. I make good choices, I need to make better choices.
On the plus side. heh, pun not intended I recently discovered I have great plus size proportions. I know that I am considered a “plus size” girl but I actually took measurements and what do you know. 46-36-46. The only mild problem is my tummy. My natural waist, the smallest part, is 36″ I need to shrink down my tummy by my belly button and my pooch that exists only to cause me mental problems. =) I’m told all girls have this little pooch, I don’t really see it on others unless they are extremely large. “skinny” girls definitely don’t have them and when they say they do I want to kick them. if you are a skinny girl don’t take offense but also don’t say you have a pooch when you know you don’t. I know we’re all made differently but knock it off.
On an entirely different subject I had a good talk with my MIL the other night. I really haven’t been myself around them (she, her husband and daniel, Jeffrey’s brother) since I met them. That’s about 2 1/2 years now She has said some things that I take one way and then get offended and then I act differently around her and it just happened again and again. My step-mother Terry and I talked alot about it and she convinced me to talk with her just one and one, and it was great. I feel much better now. Much MUCH better and now I think we can have a better relationship.
Jeffrey and I got 1 year membership cards to the Wild Animal Park and San Diego Zoo yesterday. Mentor had purchased tickets for as a wedding gift so we upgraded them to a membership. We’re going to try to spend more time together not sitting in front of the TV or just sitting on the couch playing on the computer. We also have our fun passes to Sea World we can use.
Things are okay here. I don’t have anyone to play with here so it can get lonely alot of the time. But the Smurf n Jenn and the baby are going to move in June so that will be better and Jeffrey goes back to SRT this summer. He leaves at the end of may and will come back in July. Two years ago he sound designed 5 shows for them, last summer he didn’t work for them and they apparently didn’t get as good of product from whomever they did hire. So they offered him 3 shows this summer for more money than when he did 5. He’s excited and I’m happy for him.
I start esthetician school on 3.25.08 and should be done in september.