Particular Times

A beautiful and dear  friend of mine had some stuff happen recently to her personal life and my response was for her to listen to my "anthem" song.  Which currently is "Not as We" by Alanis Morissette.  She asked me to send it to her and of course I will, of course I am.  i thought about gifting it to her via iTunes but I decided to make her a "mix tape" member those?….member tape cassettes?  Well, its not a tape, its a CD but it has different songs on it that I thought would help get through it.  It is a mix of songs that I relate to on a serious level lyrically and musically and other songs that just make me smile, cause smiling and laughing helps everything get better faster.  In choosing the songs I ran into one I haven’t visited in quite sometime.  Right now, at this particular time – its perfect for me and so I give you:

That Particular Time by  Alanis Morissette

my foundation was rocked my tried and true way to deal was to vanish 
my departures were old I stood in the room shaking in my boots 
at that particular time love had challenged me to stay 
at that particular moment I knew not run away again 
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you 
at that particular time 

we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated 
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding 
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait 
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient 
that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant 

I’ve always wanted for you what you’ve wanted for yourself 
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell 
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt 
and in the meantime I lost myself 
in the meantime I lost myself 
I’m sorry I lost myself¡ .i am 

you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction 
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to define what you wanted 
at that particular love encouraged me to leave 
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me 
that particular month was harder than you’d believe but I still left 
at that particular time 

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Posted on September 19, 2008, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. wow. that hit so close to home i nearly lost it at work.
    I’m feeling particularly empathetic now… I think that’s what I mean… I’m pretty sure empathy not sympathy… I always forget which is which…

    • empathetic: you can understand and share my feelings
      sympathetic: feeling sorry for my misfortune
      It’s a good song. Sorry you almost lost it at work though

      • yep. empathic. *hugs*

      • As a side note….
        Next time you are near slo on a saturday night, I think you should come check out the Blues dancing on Cal Poly Campus, I think you would really like it. Actually, consider this a standing invitation to come to any of the classes and dances I am going to 🙂 they is fun, and usually cheap or free.

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