Particular Times
A beautiful and dear friend of mine had some stuff happen recently to her personal life and my response was for her to listen to my "anthem" song. Which currently is "Not as We" by Alanis Morissette. She asked me to send it to her and of course I will, of course I am. i thought about gifting it to her via iTunes but I decided to make her a "mix tape" member those?….member tape cassettes? Well, its not a tape, its a CD but it has different songs on it that I thought would help get through it. It is a mix of songs that I relate to on a serious level lyrically and musically and other songs that just make me smile, cause smiling and laughing helps everything get better faster. In choosing the songs I ran into one I haven’t visited in quite sometime. Right now, at this particular time – its perfect for me and so I give you:
That Particular Time by Alanis Morissette
my foundation was rocked my tried and true way to deal was to vanish
my departures were old I stood in the room shaking in my boots
at that particular time love had challenged me to stay
at that particular moment I knew not run away again
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you
at that particular time
we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient
that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant
I’ve always wanted for you what you’ve wanted for yourself
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt
and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I’m sorry I lost myself¡ .i am
you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to define what you wanted
at that particular love encouraged me to leave
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particular month was harder than you’d believe but I still left
at that particular time
Posted on September 19, 2008, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.
Aiyani Mersai 
wow. that hit so close to home i nearly lost it at work.
I’m feeling particularly empathetic now… I think that’s what I mean… I’m pretty sure empathy not sympathy… I always forget which is which…
empathetic: you can understand and share my feelings
sympathetic: feeling sorry for my misfortune
It’s a good song. Sorry you almost lost it at work though
yep. empathic. *hugs*
As a side note….
Next time you are near slo on a saturday night, I think you should come check out the Blues dancing on Cal Poly Campus, I think you would really like it. Actually, consider this a standing invitation to come to any of the classes and dances I am going to 🙂 they is fun, and usually cheap or free.