the birds above my head.
I need another job. I need a second job to help supplement my building a clientele as an Esthetician. It REALLY sucks to wake up and try to respond to a text Mr. Man sent me when Verizon shuts my phone off. AGAIN WITHOUT WARNING. Yes, I understand there are risks and consequences of not paying my bill. But I never get a bill, paper or email , nor warning that they will turn it off soon I simply wake up and I can’t call out, or text out. NOW. I understand a have what they call "a billing cycle" and as far as I know I should be making payments on the same day every month. I don’t know when that is, YES I could easily find out. None of that is the point. Those are the facts, my problem is the principle. A LITTLE WARNING!! I’m not TRYING to ignore my bill, I really like having a phone and my friends numbers so close to me I could text them whenever I wanted. I feel safer driving knowing if something goes wrong I can make a phone call to AAA or the police or whatever . An email that says "hi you owe us $__.____ would be helpful. I owe them $150. Cool since I have $47 to my name and need to come up with $325 for rent at Roxy.
Ugh. I’m just frustrated. I’m tired of being more than poor. I’m tired of feeling like my poor mother has to deal with her almost 30 year old daughter living in her house because of a divorce and lack of funds to do anything.
I get online EVERYDAY and send out resumes, and have got maybe 3 interviews. All of which LOVED me, but never called me back for the second interview or for the job. I’m certain it has to do with my availability. I work 3 days at Roxy so I’m looking or something the other days. But if I have to give up skin care for a bit, I’ll have to – and I’ll cry. Alot. I just wanna do something I like and get paid for it, I didn’t think that was asking so much. I just wanna be able to pay my own car insurance and get an eye exam, it’s been 2-3 years. I just wanna start paying my student loans and my credit cards back. I just want to move out of my mom’s house and be an Adult.
But instead I get shit on.