Kropps and Bobbers moved locations and no longer have a treatment room so I was out of a job for a bit. The few and far between clients I had there in June and July made me really tight on finances and asking for help is never fun. But I didn’t just sit there whining and feeling sorry for myself. As soon as I found out they would be switching locations I started putting feelers out for a new position somewhere, still as an esthetician. I went to school for this. I took a CA state written and practical exam, and a NY state written and practical exam and I was NOT going to return to a means-to-an-end job. I submitted and interviewed, and submitted and interviewed and submitted and interviewed. And then, finally, landed a position with a wonderful boutique spa Midtown East (42nd & Madison). It’s PERFECT for me. If I was asked to write down everything I wanted in a place I was working, it would be this place. And I’m happy for it.
i’m still in Massage Therapy Education. Finals are this week for this trimester, then I get a few weeks off and it’s back to it.
I go to Jersey to visit The Gutterson’s as often as i can
I’m still running, and training for those races. One of which is the end of this month. I’m still not excited, I’m still scared I’ll throw up–but I can now run the 5k at a jog without stopping to walk. Some would say “look how far you’ve come” I say “Why am I running??? No one is chasing me with an axe!” But one of my best friends wants me to do this with her, and I don’t like letting my friends down.
Mr. Snow is out of my life now. That was a wonky last few weeks. I started hitting that moment where I was just annoyed with every little thing, and I felt smothered, and I felt like I was a teacher. Which isn’t conducive of a working relationship, regardless if there are titles involved. It was a different experience for me. I definitely asserted myself more, stood up for myself, said what I actually felt and thought. And it was a good feeling for me to do that. Too many times I say what either I would like to hear, or what I think they want to hear. And that’s not a healthy way to live emotionally or mentally. I started to only see the things that annoyed me, hear the things that annoyed me and I was unable to be bothered anymore. There is a place where you can make others aware of what’s going on, but you can’t hold them accountable unless you’re their parent or mentor–and I was neither and heading down that path, which I REALLY did not want. Being clear is very important. And that’s with yourself and towards others. [Deep inhale, slow exhale. smile. It’s over and done with].
So here I am. Content. Nah, HAPPY. I love my spa. It’s the first time since I got licensed that I feel I’m in “Career-mode” versus having just a “job.” I enjoy going to school. I have a great table at home I can practice on people with. A Planet Fitness just opened up one block away so when I have the funds I will sign up and be able to just walk there and do my thing and walk back. I’ve been cooking. I sold some stuff I don’t need or want anymore. I’m at peace. And this is extremely good.
Next thing is buying a ticket to fly home to CA in September for a wedding and my nephew’s birthday, Little B will be TWO!!!!.