Forget me not’s
Apparently I’m hurting some feelings out there. I assure you it’s not intentionally, it’s actually a lack of effort on my part, I suppose. I have the people in my life that are apart of me everyday, a few really great friends, some new friends, some old friends, some acquaintances, and some people that are in limbo. I miss certain people that I don’t mention, I miss certain people that no one else even knows about. I am supposed to be this entertainment, this comic relief, this always full of energy, this light is supposed to come on when I enter the room – and I’m more than willing to be that on many occasion,however, What I think we’re missing here is that I’m also a person with other feelings than excitement or eagerness or crazy fun-ness. I have my moments of up and down and even side to side. I can’t possibly pour my heart out to EVERYONE if something is wrong. I won’t. I can’t possibly let EVERYONE in on EVERYTHING, it’s too difficult, it’s too much, it would be very hard. Maybe I will only ever act a certain way to someone, doesn’t make me fake, doesn’t mean I have this “front,” means that’s how I’m gonna act – right then, right there. And I won’t always open up to you, I’m not a book – well maybe a part of me is, but the rest just isn’t always opened to the public, the rest needs a place to just…..”be”….sometimes. Maybe I’m a little more down sometimes, maybe I’m really hyper sometimes, maybe I don’t want to talk, maybe I don’t want to sing. Just maybe these are things that should be taken into consideration too.
And I apologize if any of my friends have ever felt neglected, or time deprived. My time is precious and I DO want to share it with you, but I can only do my best.
You ALL are so important to me, it’s your support that I breathe and your smiles that I walk with, every day.