Aiyani Mersai

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I’ll write about my valentines day after class – off I go.

Tomorrow on Monday the 13th I’m auditioning for the Summer Season of PCPA.  This means I’d get paid for the shows they cast me in for the Summer.  My hunch is that I’ll be asked/told to be a swing for Beauty and the Beast in Solvang (the Remount) and the shows I’m auditioning for are

A little Night Music
Anna in the Tropics
Much Ado about Nothing
Dames at Sea

I’m told by fellow classmates I look the part for people in Anna in the Tropics, and Dames at Sea is full of tap dancing so that’d be fun.

I don’t know about any of these plays and tomorrow I’m doing 2 monologues and a excerpt from Buenos Aires from Evita.

I hope you are doing well out there.  keep emailing me, I check that more than I check LJ.  Mandy got your thing, Loke see you in a couple weeks and to all a goodnight

1.  Thanks for your help with “Lottie.”  Thank you for your comments and emails, it DID help. 

2.  My sister is engaged!!!!!.  . . I don’t know if I’m allowed to post that, but I dont’ think there’s anyone here that she would rather tell in person or call herself.  But it happened yesterday.  They went on a hot air balloon ride, then hiked up around Big Sur then landed at the beach where Matt proposed and then went to dinner at Buena Tavola (sp? sorry) SO excited for my sister.  ps. it was REALLY fun sending kaz a picture of her hand and then she called and they were all screaming for my sister and toasting to her (they = a whole bunch of people at the barn) Sister asked me to be her maid of honor which means I need to chat with kaza about crazy fun stuff to do with/to her like she did with ter-bear.

3.  I have lots of homework to do, lots of memorizing for classes to do – oh joy, and I need to start some laundry and run errands today like to wally world or target and to the gross berry store (read: grocery store)

4.  I love Jeffrey Cleveland

5.  um. . . I’m a little hungry

6.  I need to call my Shakespeare tutor (Ro) to ask for help in paraphrasing some shtuff and I’ve gained 12 pounds since december 18th.  wah wah wah.  Vicisous circle (thank you notting hill says kaz)

I’m sorry I don’t have anything of interest to post, my life is just school again and soon will be rehearsal and school and how many times can i post about jeffrey cleveland before everyone gets sick of me?  I love him – he’s wonderful and he handles my mood changes and personality very well.  I floss 3- 5 times a week depending on what I eat (thank you shout out to zannie) and I bought the new James Blunt CD and the new John Mayer Trio CD.  I finished “24” season I.  We’re watching Everybody loves Raymond season 2, Then we’re starting Alias season 1.  I’ve watched seasons 1-3 but he hasn’t so we’ll start at the beginning and get it caught up.  We’ll probably do Alias, then some Lois and Clark season 1, then back to 24, then smallville or friends then Alias 2.  just to keep things interesting and like real television . . . did i mention how much i adore him and love him?

The Smurf turns 19 on monday, nuff said. And I’m still hungry – so off I go. 

We’ve been given our scenes to work on.  My scene is from a play entitled “The Dark at the Top of the Stairs.”  No its not a scary play or a mystery, its just about the struggle of a family – that’s as brief as I can make it.

I have to be able to connect to everyline this character says.  I need to be able to understand why I’m saying what I’m saying, I need to know what I want ; what my intention is.  Some of her characteristics I can relate to, some of her lines; the words she uses I can relate to and I can say as if they were mine.  What I cannot relate to stumps me in a douple different ways.  One, she’s married – we all know I’m not.  The tricky part is the relationship between her and her husband is very. . . non active.  They don’t have sex – and she talks about it, he’s passive and a little monotonus (in my eyes).  The line I can’t relate to is this:

“. . . I wish to God someone loved me enough to hit me.  You and Rubin fight.  Oh, God I’d like a good fight.  Anything’d be better than this nothing.  Morris and I go around always being so sweet to eachother, but sometimes I wonder maybe he’d like to kill me.”

For my own reasons “aiyani” would not say that “i wish someone loved me enough to hit me.”  I know there is logic in this for Lottie (character) I’m having trouble finding it.  This is where you come in.  Not that I’m looking for you to spill your life story, unless you want to, to me – but is there logic in it for YOU.  Have you been in this kind of situation? where you’d be willing to take ANYTHING even if it was a sort of abusive physical contact connection in place of absolutley nothing? 

I’d appreciate any and all comments or moments you have to share with me.  Please comment here, or email directly if you feel it is too personal at 

princessaiy@gmail.com   

thanks so much ladies and gentlemen – and I hope all is well where you are.

I just need to say how in love I am and how lucky I feel that I get to look at this everyday.  Seriously his eyes make me melt.

Day 10, still have a terrible cough, not congested nor do I have a runny nose – yay!

I’m still sick. Day 9 – did I even post that I was sick again? Whatever.  Yes. . .

Sunday 1/8/06 I woke up with a tickle in my throat and began taking Airborne. 

Monday 1/9/06 Still taking airborn with a tickle in my throat and now a bit of a runny nose, this was Strike Beauty and the Beast day

Tuesday 1/10/06 was audition day for “Our Town,” “Rounding Third,” and “Oliver – the Musical”  This day I was taking dayquil and feeling fleh but able to get through my stuff.  On this particular day I was hoping I’d get through my monologues successfully and sing my song ish.  The hope was that they would see improvement from my first semester but still not find a place in any of the plays to cast me in.  I know – “why are you in theatre school if you don’t want to be cast in plays?” simply folks I just wanted to focus on my school work.  Jumping into a performance conservatory and understudying 6 people was really hard.  I was hoping for this semester off.  “Rounding Third” is a 2 male show, good for me.  “Our Town” had callbacks and was cast within the day – I was not cast, also good for me. 

Wednesday 1/11/06 still on dayquil but much more congested and carrying my own box of kleenex (Puffs plus Lotion saves lives – thanks).  This was Dance Audition day.  The combo was MUCH easier than the Gaston audition at the beginning of the year and half way through he made a cut and said to the people it in no way meant you were not cast its that he’s seen all he needs from them and wants to try harder stuff with the people staying.  I had to stay.  The next combo kicked my ass.  Not out of moving around too much, but of the little technical things.  My body just wouldn’t cooperate.  A part of me was thinking – so maybe this is a good sign and I won’t get cast. 

Thursday 1/12/06 coughing crazily, SO congested I know have a headache my body aches and dayquil wasn’t really working at this point.  Cast list for Oliver went up – I’m a Swing.  All of you remember what a swing is right?  So I don’t know how many girls i’m “swinging” for.  I imagine between 4 and 6.  Normal school classes have resumed and I’m still carrying my own box of kleenex.

Friday 1/13/06 – Mentors Birthday.  Happy Birthday mentor, and friday the 13th -ooooo.  If it meant something to me I’d write more, but it doesn’t.  I wake up feeling worse and by the time I get to school I have a cough attack so hard I cough up blood.  I tell them I’m leaving and going to the school nurse.  School nurse not there because Hancock isn’t actually back from vacation yet – lucky bitches.  I find Marian Urgent Care on Stowell and text Cleveland what I’m doing and where I am.  He calls and asks if I want him to come sit with me (and all the people said “aawwwww”) I say yes.  2 hours later I’m taken backstage and my blood pressure is fine and my heart sounds fine and it sounds like I have few. . . not a; singular; one. . .but a “few” viral infections.  How exciting I say to the Doctor talking a mile a minute.  He says antibiotics won’t help a viral infection you have to depend on your body to keep fighting it off so stick with strong decongestants and cough syrup. I say I understand that – and I wasn’t there looking for sympathy or antibiotics if I don’t need them, I went because I was coughing up blood.  he says its a symptomatic reaction to all the coughing because I’ve probably thrashed my throat by now.  Well – thank you very much have a great day and I left with a prescription for cough syrup with codeine (sp? sorry) that I decided not to go fill up.  I went back to school and finished my day with a box of kleenex and sudafed

Saturday 1/14/06 I slept and lazed around the house and read a play I was supposed to read, still my own box of kleenex and went to see The Adobe Players rendition of ” The Glass Managerie ” (sp? sorry lisa marie, my program is WAY over there on my floor. lol) and to Antonio’s in Nipomo for dinner with Cleveland, more sudafed

Sunday 1/15/06  I slept, watched 24 season 1 and read the other play I needed to read and just tried to rest with my Kleenex right next to me, on sudafed

Monday 1/16/06 Can I just say 24 is crazy cool and puffs plus lotion saves lives.  I had to STGA from 2:30pm – 9, took my kleenex and have never washed my hands so many times in my life.  i didn’t make anyone drinks or get anyone food I thought that’d be bad.  I was the queen on register and I cleaned alot before I left to go home and do homework and sleep, on sudafed

Tuesday 1/17/06 I feel that the worst is over but my cough has moved from coughing up stuff to that very harsh cough.  I still have kleenex by my side at all times and have sneezed more in the past week than I did in 2004 and 2005 combined. My whole body aches and is done being sick, on sudafed

Wednesday 1/18/06 Same harsh cough, don’t feel as congested but nose still running – I love homework. . . no I LOVE 24.

Thrusday 1/19/06 No pills, just me and the kleenex and a slightly milder version of the harsh cough, and I have to get back to school by 6:30 to work on a scene for class. 

ps. i’m on my 7th box of kleenex.  have a great night and i’ll see everyone after school is out in MAY (sniff sniff, grabs kleenex)

Last week was a triumph of intros.  Not all but most of my friends and all of my family (immediate of course) met Jeffrey Cleveland.  Kaza coined the phrase/nickname “Jeffrey-Cleveland” the other night while the four of us were hanging out and I loved it, so it will stick and all shall call him either Cleveland, Jeffrey-Cleveland or if you’re talking to him you probably could just say Jeff. BUT the rule is when you talk to ME about him you use MY nicknames. deal? deal.

He met:
Nahnnah, Pete, Brighteyes, Kevin, Vicki, Loke, Mandy, Chad, PG, Leonard (PG’s husband), my mommie and randy and brothers, dadda n terry and my stepbrother Lucas and his girlfriend Shannon.  Kaza and David and he and I had dinner and played Scene it and drank much wine and watched Austin Powers 3, seriously one of the best nights of my life probably.  Loke made this delicious casserole and amazing pumpkin pie, Chad and Cleveland made the fire place work. He met Caitlin and Captiain and Mr. Matt (from the green apron) and all my brothers friends affectionatly known as “the brotherhood.”  If he didn’t meet you – there will be time and of course i can’t wait for you too. 

School starts tomorrow, kind of . . . well – today we had to break down the set from Beauty and the Beast – I was coincidentally enough instructed to help with “Sound.” we all know – that’s his department, I didn’t ask, didn’t hint infact i said i didn’t have a preference but there I went.  We audition tomorrow for Our Town and Oliver, I have to memorize my other monologue (we have to have 2 prepared) and practice my song.  I’m singing “Good & Evil” from Jekyll and Hyde.  I don’t know if I can even sing it anymore, bla.  I need to get to work though.  I normally am not a procrastinator (sp?) but when it comes to reading plays or preparing for an audition I dont’ really want to do – i wait and wait and wait.  Oh well.  something I’ll either live with or decide to change sometime in my life. for now?! – off to do school work, perhaps first – a glass of wine. 

Mandy – please write me the list of wines again we were talking about.  you took a meridian ______ to lokes, and silver_____ you said i liked and a 3 word one. . . and . .  a syrrah something or other. 

Loke – thank you so much for your hospitality the other night, and how did you make that pie – good GOD and my sister is in love with it too!! hello to the sgt please

kevin & vicki – sorry again i didnt’ get there on time nor at harrys at all – i was working on school stuff (like you told me to bla bla bla)

and……….all others happy new year and I hope all is well where ever you are.