Aiyani Mersai

new york, and my homework that is will be due on saturday.

Louie B’s bar in Santa Maria and THE GOD OF KARAOKE (ps funny voices and stories on the way home)

the tax company (Ashmore & Associates)

Brian from skariokie (jess’s friend brian), our little conversation.

dadda

I think that’s it for now.  I just needed to get it out of my brain to a place where I could remember later.

So there I was sitting with Peach (my computer) looking up stuff and checking emails and whatnot when a knock is at the door.  Odd……..I peak out the window but don’t see anyone, perhaps the mail man dropped something off and now I will go and retrieve said package.  Only I open the door and there are 2 young boys probably 19 or 20 white shortsleved colored shirts, black pants, a necktie and a black name tag.  Hi we’re from the church of Jesus Christ and Latter day saints.  (oh joy) Hi guys……it’s wierd to be talking to you in my jammies.  They explain they just want to share a message with me and do I attend church and bla bla bla.  I say no I dont’ go to church anymore people bother me. Which is true…………..sidenote: 

I left Calvary chapel Church at 15/16ish because everyone felt bad that my parents didn’t go.  Now we all know my mother is a very strong christian but because she didnt’ attend church she probably was going to hell anyways…….and my dad believes but doesn’t go around reading the bible or anything.  they all treated me like an outcast.  After all, all the parents met THERE at 18 got married and popped out kids at the same time, which is why there were all the same age, growing up together, falling in-so-called love and gettin’ married at 18 and 19 and poppin’ out babies.  We know this is NOT my style.  Obviously, I knew I was meant for different things, so I left.  I then attended New Life Nazarene church.  My sister works there, my mommie goes there and my brothers enjoy youth group and stuff there.  Great, Fine, and Fabulous.  Then, my life takes a wierd screaching turn when the first boyfriend/love disappears living only his clothes behind at his aunts house and a kiss on my forehead with verbal promises of seeing me soon.  This tragic moment in my life at the young age or 18 (and yes I wanted to marry him…..but not til I was 23) left me baffled confused and or course sad.  And asking EVERYONE to leave me alone didnt’ work.  Telling EVERYONE I didnt’ want to talk about it, or him didnt’ help.  And I became angry.  Angry at everyone for not respecting my wishes by letting me be and quite frankly…..” I don’t want to talk about it doesnt’ mean pray RIGHT OVER ME”  So I left.  And I go if my sister is singing, or if my family is involved, or for Christmas and Easter – affectionately known as CEO (Christmas & Easter Only).  So there’s that, doesn’t mean I dont’ believe, just means I dont’ go to church………………..end sidenote

So I tell them my stories and somehow move onto acting and the fact I was in Gods Army 2.  Now, the Mormon Family, if you will – are HUGE fans of Gods Army as it is ABOUT mormons saving people and trials and tribulations just trying to get through your own life, while trying to save others.  I told them yah I was in the sequel and the FLIPPED OUT.  I’m not even sure how we moved there but they said they LOVED Gods Army, and Brigham city and didn’t know there would be a sequel but were VERY excited.  I mean………..like me in the front row of a John concert excited.  They asked about the people and I said there were some of the same people and it was written and directed by the same guy so it would be good and again……..they were undeniably exstatic.  Well we finish our conversation.  I take their book because I won’t be able to shut the door until I do (i mean that nicely…….) and they say thanks and we’ll see you around.  …….then about 10 minutes later

I go out and change over my laundry and they come back around the corner.  I say hey guys and they say

“can we have your autograph?”

Died of laughter.  yes right to them, and not because I thought they were stupid for asking but because it was SOOOO not a big deal to me and I explained that to them.  I said I’m not even that big of a part, it’s not even out yet, you’ll forget all about this -you’re being silly.  They said they wouldn’t forget, that it would mean a LOT to them and just the fact that I “hung out” with these people that were practically heroes to them was reason enough to ask me to sign there papers.

So I did.

and it was wierd, and fun all at the same time.  yes, people have asked for my autograph before – but when kids ask you at the SLO Little Theatre it doesn’t seem that big of a deal.  But when someone says you hung out with my hero, I am humbled and appreciative. 

NEW TOPICS

I got my new glasses, and my contacts – it’s nice.  I haven’t worn contacts in over a year but I remember how to put ’em in and I didn’t freak out like I thought I would. 

I start training at the Tax Company next week.  Then in january it will be M/T/W from like 8-4 then when february kicks in it will be a full blown M-F 8-5 and I will still try to get some hours in at the green apron.  I gotta have SOMETHING to transfer with, plus I get free stuff and that’s always nice.  So there’s that..

GREEN APRON HINTS

How to Order your drink

SIZE FIRST
How many shots (if you want more than what a drink comes with)
The syrup you want
The milk you want
The name of the drink

ie.  Grande Vanilla Nonfat Latte
ie.  Tall Carmel Frappucino

It seems easy but if you come in and say “I’d like a latte……vanilla……decaf……….extra vanilla, with an add shot and nonfat milk” I will only look at you and try to memorize what you are saying and then say “what size”  Just a lil help.  OF COURSE.  If you want it ICED say THAT …BEFORE the size or we’ll grab the wrong cup, mark it up and make you the wrong drink – unless you catch us mid mark and say “oh sorry I wanted that on ice.  Then we have to look at you……… and throw it away.

ie.  Iced Grande Vanilla Nonfat Latte

If you want more help on ordering let me know what you like and I’ll tell you how to order it.  But just in general SIZE FIRST.  Thanks.

DO

*  Know what you want by the time you get to the register. 

*  Take the samples that are provided for you, they are not old or stale they really ARE free and normally quite yummy

*  Tell us who is with you

*  Give your name, OR ANY name you will answer to

*  Know what kind of filters you use if you need us to grind coffee for you, it DOES matter for how fine we will grind it.  Most of you have a “flat-bottom” filter, or “Paper Cone” which comes to a point…….like a cone

DON’T

*  Look at the board like you’re reading what it says and say “uuhhhhmmmmm” and then select a drink that is not even on THAT BOARD.
(ie.  in MY store, to the customers Left is the least of beans, to the right are all the drinks, dead center is what we are brewing right then and there, dont’ look at the bean board and say “i’ll take a venti sumatra” and we’re not even brewing that)

*  Ask if we have samples, if we do – you’ll know

*  Take money from the tip jar because you dont’ have enough – that’s just rude.

*  Ask for a microwave, None of the Green Aprons have them – there ARE reasons, if you care ask me why

*  Ask for a toaster, again – none of them have them

*  complain that other Starbucks have certain pastries, we will say “yes you’re right” because we all dont’ have the same provider or bakery that sends us our goodies. 

It is the holiday season and there are lots of fun gifts for the price of both your legs, and people may be everwhere holding everything – if you have question ASK, we’re not supposed to bug you past saying “can I help you find something”

No, you are NOT allowed to come see me at my store.  I’ve said this before and some people think it doesn’t apply to them.  The acceptions are Brighteyes, she  started going there before I was hired and tries to go when I’m not there.  Kitten (Jen Law) Again, was going before I existed there and doesn’t make fun or give me a hard time.  Sister, she got me the job.  People that go ONLY because I tell them Not to….piss me off.  You’re my friends but if you want to be my enemy, piss me off.  I have my own issues and reasons for not wanting you to go, the least you could do is respect my wishes.  And yes, I even get a little pissy if my mommie walks in, so if I can get mad at my own mother whom I adore and love (99% of the time) then I will MORE than likely get pissed at you.  Don’t test me, someone already has and the outcome was not nice.  I don’t have to be nice if you go, because I”m “nicely” asking you NOT to. 

Have a great day, try the Cranberry Bliss bar, the Ginger bread, and the Carmel Pecan Torte, and the Opera Torte.

We are into single digit countdown for my trip to New York – it WILL be amazing.  Thank you 9 days.

I must go and wrap presents now

Remind me to type about the dream I had lastnight, it’s about John.  (HUGE SMILE!)

So, my friend Colin had an incident with his

Dude what is this??

A triumph.  I successfully finished Angels & Demons.  I’m impressed.  I like the writing style of this Mr. Dan Brown.  He always kept my attention and though it screamed of a large vocabulary, I understood everything that he was saying – which makes me feel good.  Next on the list is either Wicked or The Da Vinci Code.  I haven’t decided which one I want to read first. 

The reunion for Angry Housewives, and the viewing of the show went well.  Pretty good sound for some guys little camera just sitting in the corner.  Brunch was lovely.  Michael and I decided to digest instead of going to the workout/class at Rookies place (what’ it called again?  Rhythm and Motion?……..i don’t know, but THERE!).  I had worked out every other day, so it was nice to have a day off.  Today I did make it to the gym, I don’t think I pushed myself enough though.  Even though I went up in weight last week, it felt easy.  But I think it’s because I had a protein shake right before.  I normally like to go on an empty stomach and eat about an hour after I’ve finished.

Tomorrow, should time allow I will squeeze in a Pilates workout.  I have a class to take from 9am – 4pm and stga at 6pm – 11pm.  The class is in SLOville and it’s for the tax company i’ll be working with/for in February through april.  They’re paying for me to take Word and Outlook classes.  This will be helpful for other Officy type jobs should I ever choose to use it in the future. 

My eyes kinda hurt.  I guess they want to be asleep, but I slept until 10:30am this day.  That’s kind of a lie, I wake up when Michael leaves if I stay there, he slams that door pretty well and after that I hear the cars and other people beginning they’re day.  And we stayed up watching movies til like 1 or 2 am……but that’s still enough sleep right? meh.  whatever.

I feel like I have a lot on my mind that I need to get out and discuss or whatever, but I can’t remember what they are.  (thinks…..dadda, stga, angry housewives, money things like midas and car payment…….) Nope, I don’t know what else I have to say.  So I guess I’ll say nothing and get ready for bed.

Goodnight neverland.  It’s now the 23. 18 days til I’m in NY. 

oh oh!!! I get new glasses and contacts soon, thank you vision insurance. 

I feel that sometimes this internet thing is too much for me.  Can I get a witness.  I mean,  I didn’t jump on with the programming thing when it was hot, and I only know so much about my email accountS.  Yah, account…S  I have many.  But why?  Why?, I don’t know why.  Because I can.  And now I have a LOT of space and a LOT of room for messages, that never actually get sent to me.  I mean I have 100MG with yahoo.com,  125MG at excite.com, 125 MG at myway.com, 250 at hotmail.com, and 1,000 MG or 1 Gig as I’ve been told with gmail.com………. Why I have these Id ont’ know.  I have certain addresses for certain things though.  Most of the friend sites (ie friendster, myspace, hi5) all send messages to the yahoo one.  That and a lot of junk goes there too.  I use excite for my questions to people I don’t know, and the myway account for people I know.  Kind of like the main one.  I just recently got the gmail account and I’m sure I’ll roll everything around to there eventually, but my GOODNESS this is silly.

ok, that said.

Hi, how are ya?  Fabulous? Great? bored?…..hhmmm….Not too much in my world.  I stga alot at nights lately, I’m a good closer apparently.  Which means I clean really good.  Oh joy.  Whatever.  I got paid today and the money is already gone, and not on fun stuff mind you.  I bought some essentials and paid my gym membership and will need to pay Midas the rest of the mula I owe them for fixing my car. 

An Angry Housewives reunion and viewing will be sunday, I’m excited for that.  I see the girls once a fortnight!, but it will be fun to see everyone else, and eat and watch ourselves, and make fun of us.  That’s in the morning around 10:30, and I know the kick-my-ass class is Sunday at 2pm at Rookies new studio, we’ll see.  I’ve worked out everyday this week, and will tomorrow too – I might take Sunday as the day off and enjoy everyone’s company.  BUT I might not too.

On a kinda sad note.  My dadda, who has been teaching Karate for over 35 years now, and has been teaching specifically at the place he’s at in Grover beach for near 25 years………..has to close the dojo.  They raised the rent to high, and he doesn’t have enough students to keep the place.  He never made a profit on this.  He charged people according to what the bills added up to.  To keep the rent paid, toilet flushable, phone on, and lights working.  And now……..he has to close it.  It made me cry a bit, I don’t have any childhood memories without being IN class, or sitting waiting for him to finish teaching, or people coming over for private lessons.  THIS is who my dad is.  I mean yah, by “day” he repairs mobile home roofs.  Has for years.  He’s great at it, I dont’ think he likes it, but he knows how to do it.  He’s not super duper educated via the internet and stuff, but he’s SO good at what he does it seems so unfair that it should be taken away from him for monetary issues.  WHY DOES MONEY ALWAYS GET IN THE WAY?????  I felt/feel like I should’ve been making GOOD money by now acting or singing, so I could pay it for him so he can do what he loves.  It’s like taking away what he loves, and it hurts him – and he won’t show it, he never really shows his emotions.  But i KNOW he’s sad.  *I’m* sad, my sisters sad, my whole family is sad. It’s taking away what he feels he has to offer (he has said that to me before, …that he feels he doesn’t have much to offer – but teaching all his kids karate made him feel like he was offering himself and what makes him HIM……..make sense?).  Sister and I are going to throw him a surprise sorta-party.  We’re trying to contact some old students, I’ve ran into some, so it should be an okay turnout.  There are some that live in Seattle I think that we’re trying to get ahold of.  These people WOULD fly out my dad made such an impact on their lives.  I borrowed my brothers key for the dojo and found a whole bunch of old pictures.  Like EVERY picture ever taken there or at any tournament my dad kept.  Pics when I was little, from my first tournament as a purple belt, to my last as a black belt.  There’s lots of pics of a guy named Juan, whom I practically grew up with – he’s like this brother that knocked the wind out of me, but it was ok to….there’s pics of him and all these tournaments over the years from when he was a white belt till a black belt.  These people I grew up with, they ARE my childhood, this dojo IS my father – and it’s being taken away.  It just makes me sad.  He trains people so well and it’s not like Mr. Miagi stuff, people always think that and it’s not.  There is fun and there is hard work and he pushes you because he knows you CAN.  And he raises you up but desciplines you to understand your strenghth and knowledge and how to use it.  I remember going to tournaments where some schools had like 20 -30 students competing and my dad’s dojo would take like 7-10 students, tops! and we’d always go home with first and second places and Jr. Championships, and Tournament Championships.  We were all THAT good.  They hated it!!! We LOVED it, I remember competing as a green belt and there was like 15 girls in the advanced girls this age to that age kata form competition.  I got second, first went to a blackbelt, but alot of the other girls were brown belts or had black stripes and I STILL beat them.  Beat them in fighting too.  And it’s because of MY DAD.  And some kids knew what they had when they were gettin’ it, some kids dropped out because they didn’t care, and some kids were around for YEARS.  His students now will not have memories like me.  They will not have the kind of slight grief that I have, but I hope they take with them knowledge and strenght and descipline my dad has taught them to have and be.  Because THAT is what you can use ANYWHERE.  ………I’m gonna make a scrap book with all the pics I found.  Hope it will be a good turn out for him.  He deserves it.

I’m going to see what the healthclubs think, or local dance studios and stuff that may want to have him teach there a few days a week.  This way he doesn’t really have to worry about keeping everything paid off, his students would be paying the studio, he would just get to teach – which is what REALLY matters to him. 

I’ve almost finshied Angels & Demons, granted it took me around 3 weeks, but I don’t read much nor do I read fast.  After that,  it will be The Da Vinci Code.  Then WICKED by who ever wrote it.  I forget.  I got it on ebay for $7 – can’t go to wrong with that can ya? 

I’ve been told to see ELF before I go to NY – for obvious reasons apparently. 

um……Caitlin came over yesterday and we watched Into The Woods (kaza, member when I watched it like EVERYDAY and he almost drove you INSANE!!! hahahahaha) and we watched The Dark Crystal.  Which she has never seen, so that was fun.  Then we got egg-nog cause we were both craving it, at the same time….it was kinda wierd.  The other night My Michael and I watched Singing in the Rain – he’d neve seen it.  I LOVE exposing people I care about to movies that make me who I am, it’s like sharing MORE of me. ……make sense?  Hi kaza, he loved all of the numbers that will be in the yani and kaza show.  Moooooooooooses……..Mooooooses……Ini Mini MyMoooooooses…….Moses supposes his toeses are roses, but Moses supposes erroneously. For Moses, he knowses his toeses aren’t roses, as Moses supposes his toeses to be

………and I caaaaan’t stan’im

K.

Good night neverland – SPEAKING OF WHICH………..I want…..i NEED to see “Finding Neverland” (and The incredibles, and The Polar Express and…..and……….and…….

November Birthdays:
11/5  Kevin (obviously that’s past, but it was fun and he’s fun when he’s drunk and trying to play guitar)
11/8 Daaaaannnaaaa (whom I need to call and play with)
11/11  EJ Coughlin (boyfriend of my friend Kim, they now live in Washington I believe)
11/12  Randy Bear (my 6’4″ bear with bright blue eyes who needs to be a calvin klein model)
11/16  Gramma Barb (I think)
11/23  Terresa Walker (I used to work with her, hope she’s doing ok.
11/24  Sammmmmmson Blackwell (who recently  became a dad again!)
11/25  Ruben Jeffrey Valdez (sigh, my favorite knight from medieval times, who doesn’t work there anymore and yes – I cried about it)
11/26  Brandon Hedspeth (little kid I met in la la land.  His mom loved me and we played with mary kay stuff)
11/27  Heather Champeau (I called her Ferris a while ago because there were too many Heathers involved in the show we were in)
11/28  Cortney Loshbaugh (momma!!!! With my lil Caleb and Randy-I-am-your-biggest-fan in Colorado)

If I missed you please let me know.

I finally got my health benefits through the green apron.  I have to average 20 hours a week each quarter to keep them.  This will not happen because he doesn’t schedule me enough and I’ll have another job in late January taking more of my time.  SO – since I have it NOW, I’m doing EVERYTHING soon.  Gettin’ my eyes checked, my teeth cleaned and other girl things as well………..oh joy.

I’m about 170 pages shy of finishing Angels & Demons by Dan Brown (guy who wrote The Da Vinci Code) I must say it is QUITE interesting, and I only put it down when I absolutely have to.  I think this is the longest book I’ve ever read in my adult life.  I stopped reading books when I was about 15.  Always had a Christopher Pike book on hand then his stories and type of writing didin’t interest me anymore and I took to television, movies and painting my nails constantly.  BUT perhaps the Dan Brown has changed something in me for reading.

I had a cast reunion for the importance of pretending to be 18 with HUGE knockers last saturday.  I know,  why go be with these people if I didn’t like the show.  Well, I liked the people – had my moments with the director and closing night became what the play should’ve been the whole time.  So there was a little “aawwww” in me when I received my invitation via the phone.  I went, we ate we drank, I got smashed, it was fun.  I even had a lil heart to heart with Larry, the director.  He said he’d wished we had the conversation like 2 months ago cause he didnt’ know me or understand me much then.  He said he always felt that I felt I was above the show and better so I didnt’ HAVE to focus like everyone else.  When in fact it was more like, lets not waste time.  Lets do this.  I told him if I didnt’ REALLY want to do it I would’ve dropped out.  I told him there were some good challenges the show brought to me and swallowing my pride was not one of them.  It was only a little wierd because of Phillip, and I was fine by showtime.  And I didnt’ want people to go because I didnt’ feel it was coming together, but once it did – I invited people.  That my involvement though sometimes seemed unattached was much more of the challenge and wanting to meet the challenge.  He didnt’ know what challenges I had meant.  He said I’m a natural and fluent on stage and comfortable with direction – even though he rarely had to give me any.  I said the challenges were the english accent,  bringing out someone younger in me; someone more unknowing of life, looking into my brothers friends eyes and seeing who he was playing not who he was.  Working with people whom have worked together before and being “the new girl” Wearing a dress and a petticoat and thank goodness *I* didnt’ have to sport a bustier.  I told him finding “Cecily” not as she was written was one of the greatest challenges.  I believe I made her much more goofy, and witty then as written which made her appear simply naive and a bit air-heady.  He just said that *I* made him  realize he needs to do more challenging shows.  Some rolls are so type casted its like getting up there and being YOU, and I said what’s the fun in THAT?  I can be me anytime I want.  That’s not a challenge and I smiled at him.  And he just nodded.  Then Lisa Marie (woman from play and co-founder of the adobe players) came over and they chatted about me right infront of me.  I love drunk people…………well I loved THESE people drunk.  Everyone seemed a little more approachable and conversational, even I was – and THAT Im’ sure was different for everyone there.

I missed the Music Awards on ABC sunday night.  John played “Daughters” and I was goin to tape it but freagin’ forgot!  Hate my life, sometimes.

Jean-ene Grrr (friend in la la land) said John will be playing in la la land december 6th, along with Duran Duran and Alanis Morissettte and others.  Not together I believe just there……..you know what I mean?  So she’s gonna try to get tickets for that! yay for that, One of the things ………Two of the things I hate most about living in this small town are John never comes here, and I never know when he’s gonna be in CA because news doesn’t travel past Santa Barbara.  BUT I will soon meet him with my new body, the new me, and he will love me and want to marry me.

I feel like maybe I just might be getting somewhere with this working out thing.  Out of the 16 days in november so far, I’ve worked out for 9 of them.  And I still don’t think thats enough.  So we’re gonna kick it up a notch here and aim for 5-6 days instead of 4.  The workout on sundays at rookies new studio can count so I still get a free day in there at least once a week.  But my eating habbits go in and out of being good.  And not that I over eat, but the other day I had pizza with michael – and felt horrible for doing it.  He looked at me and said, it’s all you’ve eaten today – relax.  And i know I shouldn’ve have coffee, even if it’s decaf – but I don’t have that everyday either.  I know i shouldn’t drink as much, but I don’t – it just feelsl like I do.  hhmm…. I shall continue as I am, perhaps MORE fruit and MORE veggies.  I’ve beein doing rather well cutting out big carb holders like noodles, rice and bread.  Eating lots of chicken and pork chops and steak! and my dadda keeps the fridge full of protein and veggies for me, but perhaps more fruit – like for breakfast.  Lately I dont’ hvae breakfast, I’m just not hungry til about 1pm.  Then I only eat about 3 or 4 times a day.  I know to assist your metabolism you should eat like every 2 hours small amounts of food.  But one thing at a time.  hahahahahaahahahaha

Im’ still poor, every time I think I’ll hvae a lil extra it gets taken away.  I still owe Midas $75 for fixing my car, PBAC (gym) $40 for november, GMAC $233 for november car payment.  And I’ll tell you right now, I get paid friday and won’t have enough to pay all those things.  Oh the life of working for SEVEN DOLLARS AND TWENTY FIVE CENTS an hour.  Breathing. 

Soon something will happen.  I know it.  Something good will happen and it will lift my spirits.  And not just the fact I get to be in NY in 25 days, but something in addition to that.  I dont’ know what it is, but hopefully it will be good and helpful.

A few people have asked me when this movie I was in is going to come out.  Gods Army 2: States of Grace  It was supposed to come out in October, that was the last I heard.  I filmed it in what? January……and it was supposed to be out in October and I dont’ know whats going on with it.  If and when it is realeased it is an independant film, so it would be at the Palm, or not come to SLOville(town).  So there’s that. 

Others are wondering why L.A and for why for acting?  Why not go and sing? Truth is I love ’em both.  And then it’s then why not Broadway? why not NY with your wife Kaza and your girls Ro n Nahnnah.  Truth is I’ve always wanted to be in film.  Always wanted to be in movies.  Sure, being on tour singing would be great – don’t know how to make that happen, but if you or any of your friends have some ideas go ahead and share them with me.  I’m open for suggestions. 

I think that’s it for now.  I ate while typing this so I’m not hungry but a little thirsty, so a beverage it is. 

Oh – and my new friend Caitlin is fabU and wonderful and fun and I met her at the dunes.  She’s becoming connected to my hip and already at the bar if I’m there some one says “where’s Caitlin”  She even loved Defying Gravity so much, she wanted a copy of the soundtrack.  Now she LOVES Wicked and is jealous I get to see it next month with mahroomah!!!!!!  She learned Glinda’s part for Defying Gravity and made her skarieokie debut last saturday.  I’m very proud of her, she said she’d NEVER do karaoke and I looked at her and said “give me 2 months” and in fact it took 6 weeks.  I RULE! But no worries for the SPECIAL song.  Kaza,……….you and me OWN For Good

See ya, I must shower and read a little bit before I stga.