Aiyani Mersai

Why do I have to spend $80 to send in my Financial Aid Form?  Aren’t I ASKING FOR MONEY BECAUSE I DON’T HAVE ANY?? And yet I’m supposed to come up with $80 to hit SUBMIT on an application I just spend an hour filling out and maybe Im’ blind but NOT ONCE did it say this was gonna cost $80.

I’m fumed.  I’m poor.  I have $54 in my checking account.  I owe Bear $ tomorrow, I get paid from the tax company friday or monday and that’s my last pay check from them.  I have to send in my car payment in two weeks and yah – there’s the green apron check next friday i’ve worked like 5 days there in a month, my last check from the green apron was $45.  I hvaen’t payed my gym membership and I’m cranky now.

I’m still fumed, I’m still poor and nothing will change unless I get ANOTHER job in an office somewhere doing somethign I HATE just to make friggin ENDS MEET. 

why is this happening to ME?????

ok, i may be CRAZY and Insane. I know I know I know.  and I know my obsession in some places in the world could seriously put me in the nuthouse – but you all know me well enough to know…………..how crazy about John Mayer I am

BUT, in the 4th dream that I’ve EVER had about him – I saw the engagement ring.  I could describe it to you now and the wierdest coolest part was the gems surrounding the round diamond on a square bed were ones I didn’t recogize.  And after trying to figure out what they were (in real life, not my dream) and asking Miss Evelyn at work what the birthstone of october was and she said OPAL.  I ran home to meet with Peach (my computer) and looked up Opals and sure enough……..john’s birthstone surrounded mine on the engagement ring.  It’s sick I KNOW, I’m a geek I KNOW and my subconscious takes over me more ofthen than not – but hey.  Whatever makes ya happy right?

I SAW IT!!

Hello all.

The Background story
As most of you may know mahroomah (Kaza Kahn) will be moving back to SLOville in June/July ish. Unfortunately she (we) does not get to move back into the barn. (HUGE FROWN) And the landlord gave her notice for the rest of her things she stored there while 2 of her friends are occupying the barn. Stuff needs to be out by the end of May. I have spoken with Nipomo Self Storage (where I currently rent a 5×10 space) and they will hold a 10×10 and a 10×18 for me to look at and commit to so kaza and I can share the space. Her sister, Terri might also be storing some of her wedding gifts in there as well – I need to look at everything.

The Quest
I’m looking for people who might be able to help move stuff from the barn and from gramma barbs house (kaza’s mommies house) to Nipomo. Trucks would be helpful HOWEVER, even if you don’t have a truck, even if you can only make ONE trip – it would help SO much.

The move date is yet to be determined. AND this doesn’t all have to happen in ONE day, it can be a couple or even a few different days so long as everything is IN storage by the end of May.

Please respond if this is something you might be able to help with and when time and dates get closer I will contact you.

Thank you SO much for you help and I hope all is well in your world

Sergio I need your email addy so I can send you info for Wicked, you can email me at princessaiy at myway dot com

ps. fun to see you today at random

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I’m approaching week 5 training with Bear.  That is “Randy Bear” and I can’t say I’m pleased with myself, but he says I’m doing great.  He’s already increased weight and reps and less time between sets.  So lets say in the beginning I was squating (ish) 2 sets of 15 squats with 60 lbs.  And as of last week I THINK it was 3 or 4 sets of 20 squats with 75 or 85 pounds.  I don’t remember. Maybe less maybe more – dont’ know.

I know that my legs are MUCH stronger than my so called upper body and tuesdays are lower body days.  I know after I can’t walk without looking like jello and I can’t move very well for the next couple of days either.  I know I have the weakest upper body EVERY and we are working on Muscle Strength for upper body and muscle endurance  for lower body.

I know I hate warming up on that bike!!!! but I’m not allowed to say “I hate” or “I can’t” when I’m there.  If I dont’ like it I say “I love ____” ie “I love this bike” 

I know that when I have to sit in a squat position, just sit – no weights for like 15 – 30 seconds I recite my oscar speech in my head, I know that when I’m doing legs I sing Defying Gravity or Home Life by John Mayer.  I know that I need to find a good song to keep in mind during upper body.  Defying Gravity doesn’t seem to keep me as focused when I attempt upper body. 

I know that soon the tax company will be over and I’ll need another job STAT or MANY more hours at the green apron to keep working out with Bear, which i REALLY want to do.  Hopefully I can increase my time with him to 3 or 4 times a week.  Again, mula is an issue, not a huge one – yet.  But it does exist. 

On a completely different note. 

I know I never posted my NY trip from December, I know it’s because I never finished writing it – and I know all the notes are right next to my computer waiting for attention.  I know I got a cute card and a couple pics from mahroomah for Easter, I know we don’t get the barn (Big frown) when she and david come home, and I know I’m looking for an apt for them, and a house for Nahnnah and Pete and the puppy.

I also know in 13 shopping days I’ll be closer to 30 than I am 20.  I know it’s not a big deal, it’s still wierd.  No I’m not freakin’ out or anything just sometimes go “huh….I wanted to be more successful by now”  What I want for my birthday you ask???……..

New Make up Brushes
Gift Cert for “Faces” on Osos street
Gift Cert for Trader Joes
Gift Cert for Payless SHOES!! – all though i don’t have anymore room for shoes
The Incredibles on DVD; Widescreen
Austin Powers Trilogy on DVD; Widescreen
View from the Top (with Gwyneth Paltrow) on DVD; Widescreen
New Lip colors and lip liners to match!
Film – like for my 35mm camera, I like Fuji over Kodak.  I know – I’m the only one left with out a Digital Camera, so how bout the film OR a digital camera. lol
John Mayer “As-Is” series
To Record my songs SOMEWHERE that doesn’t cost both my arms and a leg and is still professional
Sport Bra that REALLY holds the 38DD’s/40D’s in place – those are no less than $40 I’ve seen, so I’ll probably find some eventually.
$ to work out with Bear

Things I use:

Purpose Face Soap – the pump one, not the bar
Friz Ease hair products
Oil of Olay Sensitive – face lotion
Body Lotions
Contact Solution
Venus 3 razors

I’m tired, I’m going to bed now.  Goodnight neverland. 

ps. sweetpea – i received your fed-ex, sorry i didn’t call ya back.

I feel like I have much to say but can’t seem to locate the notebook I carry with all my notes in it. 

I had a hand held mic, and a mic box strapped to my left leg with a cord the trailed up my front beneath my dress and clipped to the front lip of the chest of my dress for the camera crew.  I am the Reverend Aiyani Mersai.  “Do you?, Do you? good you’re married kiss her” ….it didn’t go quite like that.  I remember arriving to Madonna Inn by my “call time” of 10:30 and hanging out with Vicki and Kevin.  I remember when people started showing up I figured I should change my clothes and so did Kevin.  Well instead of hiking down and up the stairs we shared the bathroom on the regular level made for the handicapped.  It was large enough for both of us to change, and we’ve done shows together – so we all know that its not a big deal.  Then, I had to pee.  And so did Kevin.  The suggestion was he hold my dress and look the other way, then I hold the dress and look the other way.  That may be tmi but quite frankly I’ve known Kevin more than half my life and when you gotta go at least you’re around a friend and not stuck in a room with a stranger.  After laughing and changing we walked out and I was in leopard print slippers and a bergundy dress my mommie made for me for the wedding.  At 10 minutes to “showtime” the beautiful bride made her way upstairs for her grand entrance and a call for places was made with wannabe signlanguage between myself and brighteyes and kevin and vicki.  I remember being SO glad I was allowed to have my “script” with me because Lord knows I didn’t want to miss ONE thing for these two wonderful people.  The belly dancing was a hit, Kevin was a hit singing “The Reason” by Hoobastank, and I sang “A new Life” from the Broadway Musical Jekyll and Hyde.  Then the ceremony began.  I don’t remember stuttering, but I think at one point my dislexia kicked in – I only hoped it was unnoticeable.  I remeber being fine until Loke was crying a little during her vows.  As soon as she looked at the Seargent and said “my hero” my eyes swelled with tears and I had to fight them back.  I remember looking at the Sgt and saying with a tear driven cracky voice “do you james richard fletcher….”then pausing and taking a breath and thinking to myself “be CLEAR, be strong, don’t cry yet” as I let out the breath I felt comfortable again and finished saying “do you take this beautiful women to be your wife, to have and to hold forever?”  I remember seeing the ring he put on Loke’s finger and being concious of my eyes widening TOO big with a “HELLO GORGEOUS” exuding from my facial expression alone.  I remember both the bride and groom kinda fighting to get the rings on.  Knowing they fit and probably just a little shaky, and when does someone else EVER put YOUR ring on FOR you, they both succeeded but there was always a pause, a moment to get it right then a relief of “got it!!”  and the audience was of course a part of the relief when they both had rings on.  I remember the music of Celine Dion coming on and saying my last line and looking at the two of them and almost losing again, but not and saying “by the power vested in ME, I JOYFULLY pronounce you…husband and wife – YOU may kiss the bride” and he did and the crowd LOVED it.  I remember the groomsmen leaving with the brides maid and standing by for the bride and groom to exit before my final two cents “and they lived happily ever after” and then I spun the mic as I often do at the dunes, grabbed my “script” (that was neatly and beautifully put together into a binder by My Michael) closed it and nodded once and turned to stand in the back with Kevin.  After a few moments, I remember telling everyone thank you for being there and where to go for the reception.  Then, after the last person left I was ready to make my way to the restroom to change my clothes again the camera crew that was following Loke for the past couple weeks came up to me and said – we need to get better shots of you, can you do all your lines again?  So as professional as I could and as precise as I could repeat myself, when I looked up – who I looked at when I said whatever and where I placed an emphasis on certain words – I stood in the empty room at the Madonnna Inn and did all my lines again with a camera 1 foot to 6 feet away from me.  I told them they were lucky I had dealt with cameras before, and I wasn’t scared.  A couple of takes later with certain moments and monologues of Aiyani later, we were finished and Kevin needed his mic for the reception stat! and I needed to change and eat – I was starving. 

I the theme to Austin Powers playing when Mr. and Mrs. James Richard Fletcher entered the room.  I remember eating salad and then salmon then 2 different pieces of cake.  I remember being the first to grab a CD that was provided by the mr. & mrs (music from their wedding and songs that meant something to them) and borrowing a sharpie from one of the crew members and getting the bride and groom to sign it.  I also remember people copying me – I start trends, what can I say (chuckles)

I remember people taking turns to give their cheers and their good wishes to them and I (unfortunately) remember a certain someone, who shall remain nameless because we dont’ want to give unwelcomed credit, being a bit unclassy and random when she made a r comment with a mic in her hand for all to hear…..  some things you can’t change or take back, but for Loke and Jim – I almost want to apologize for her, because it may have been a small silly comment – but was completely unnecessary and we all knew it. 

I remember Sgt making the announcement to get goin’!  and for everyone to be at Sunset Dunes by 9pm.  I took a nap then changed (again) touched up my makeup, put on my Charlies Angels top (Emerald Moon year 3) made by Randall Sumabat and I remember the crowd at the bar, the drunks the partiers the singers and I remember Sgt Fletcher dancing with Aaron Elvin – another gentleman in uniform.  I tell ya, if we got on the internet THAT woulda had ALL kinds of comments.  But what it comes down to is a friendship. 

I remember standing outside after taking off my boots and socks, as suggested by Brighteyes, and making my way over to the sgt who had stepped away from the crowd for a moment.  I remember our talk and I remember both of us crying a little – tears of joy and absolute love for friends that would always support eachother and be there for eachother.  Tears of absolute content with a new life, new friends and a hug to the new future.  I remember him saying how cool it will be when he points me out in a movie to their kids and says “that’s auntie aiyani, that’s the girl who married mommie and me” and I told him I’d just laugh with them, while sitting on their couch and say “pass the popcorn” 

I remember drinking alot but loving every second of it.  I remember dancine with Loke to Nahnnah’s version of All that Jazz and I remember Nahnnah and I dancing to Loke singing Cabaret and I remember the crowd forming a semi circle around me when I sang Defying Gravity.  I remember Judy, Loke’s mom, dancing and loving how cute she was, how cute she is. 

Then it was sunday.  And I’ll leave those memories for part II.

The preview:  Tears because of my brother on a Sunday, into Tech Week.