Aiyani Mersai

I have decided (that for the rest of the day we are going to talk like theees) that perhaps my slight mood swings are for the lack of John Music in my daily routine. I used to listen to him on the way to work, off and on at work, and on the way home,…while I was cleaning, while I was reading, and while I was on the intrenetty. Lately, however, I have found myself listening to him only when I clean and only SOMETIMES when I’m on the intrenetty. Jaime and Danny on Star 98.7 are not that great so they work for an alarm sound, I turn it off as soon as possible. BUT I love Mark & Brian…..you sloville kids may or may not get them on Sly 96 anymore. Anyways so there’s that. Then at work it’s Christmas Music either via the radio 103.5 California Coast…All Christmas, All day – unitil Christmas……that or X-Mas CD’s. EL won’t let me listen to anything else, however today she’s sporting a Disney CD, a totally acceptable change of pace. Then on the way home it’s been Lisa Fox and Ryan Seacrest – I don’t know why….I zone them out pretty much anyways, but I don’t play any CD’s. Yesterday I listened to CHICAGO (and Seanah will be singing All that Jazz for us!!!!!!!! when I’m home) and some of Jamie Lewis – Songs A La Carte. She’s Amazing – and your jealous that you cannot buy it at your local Wally World or Target. So………on the way to work today I listened to John, and was much more pleasant once I got there. I haven’t listened to him here at work but will listen to him on the way home and that should make going home easier, as well.

TOY TALK; Today’s Toy: HACKY SAC
So they were popular while I was in Junior High and High School and EL bought one for her 8 year old son and it made me rewind to walking down the halls of AGHS not understanding the coolness or talent it took to master this thing. Here it is. It’s like this squishy ball sac thing with beans or beads or something of the sort inside. This makes it not a ball by the way because it doesn’t form like one. The idea is to keep the sac going using no hands. knees and feet are allowed and if it touches the ground you lose, you suck, you stopped the game. And so, what are YOU filled with. Do people like to play around with YOU. Do you bring more people to the circle, all eyes on you? Is it funner…..more fun to be the life of the party and hop around from person to person? Is it totally uncool for you stop? Just know that people look forward to your visit if it’s your party, if your the hacky sac. When there’s a group gathering if you’re like a hacky sac, you’ll find hopping about is the best way to please everyone but careful if it’s your party or not – you dont’ get to stop moving around; it’s too depressing.

*JP called today just to say hi – totally cute, I hope I see him this day or tomorrow!
*Sticker-boy all of a sudden wants to be friends again because he and his girlie broke up – I have friends that won’t discard me for a would be significant other.
*Plantboy actually answered his phone, a random conversation later we were done, he’s wierd sometimes.
*Haven’t heard from Adam lately….hhmmmmm I should call him
*Mike K text me alot today that was fun

Everyone that is sick in SLOville better get better or I won’t come to play. Kaza is sick too but she promises to leave it in new york and tomorrow we (she and I) can say “see you tomorrow”

I have an audition tomorrow for a pilot at 12:15p, and wardrobe fittings on friday for that film States of Grace at 1p, then to pick up kaza and we’re on our way. I’ll be staying at Dadda’s house all week but if we (you and I) stay out playing just make sure I crash somewhere safe.

And now it’s 5pm, Work is over, Im’ outta here.

Today is a day for food. I can’t see to get enough of it. I’m sure I know a couple reasons why – but we’ll let those lie for now.

For Roger Rabbit:
Calming thoughts are going out to You. Let’s remind him that it’s not his job to be happy for everyone, or make everyone happy. Sometimes You are the gentleman that lays your coat down for those to walk over, sometimes you’re the coat. Venting is ok – It REALLY is, If you don’t get it out you are cheating yourself. I’m here for you too.

Kaza:
MAAAHHHHHRRROOOOOOOMMMMMAAAHAHAHA;S AER;IOA KMK WOAEIA; KAKLDF ;AF J DUCKET!!!!1;AILF ALK GONNA GIVE YOU NINJA KICK! see you in 3 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PG:
Enjoy Cancun, Vacation is well deserved – I’ll be here for you, and I’ll be there for you.

Mommie:
It’s good that he understands where his frustrations are coming from. It’s good that Dadda only lives 2 miles away – I know it makes you sad, It makes me sad and I don’t get to live with him either way. I’m working on getting money to send people to places where it will not feel that they are tearing your family apart. Nothing will tear us apart. You are a Wonderful Beautiful and Supportive Woman, and Mommie.

Left & Right:
al;eiu aw[a;lkfja;el However!…Kaza and I are going to her sisters house this sat 12/20/03 for an annual Christmas Party……..don’t know if she will end up playing, but I will arrive rather late at least so I can see you, and YOU will see me in a dress!!!!!!!!!!! woah!!

JP:
Keep breathing. The weeks almost over, work IS just work and you don’t have to take it with you back east. Well you’ll have your pager but that’s your own fault!!! hahah, ok just kidding. I hope to see you this week.

Kevin:
Hi, I’m making a request NOW for you to sing John when I’m there – SOMETIME, I just need to hear it.

Loke:
Princess SkarieOkie CD huh??? Sounds FFFFUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNN!!!!!!!! What’s on it What’s on it? what’s on it? what’s on it? what’s on it? what’s on it?

Jax:
Reminder – you get first dibs on spending time and playing. Thank you for who you are, and who I am because of you. I will be in town from this friday 12/19 leaving Sunday 12/28. who love joo?

Today’s Toy: Pick-up-Stix
If you remember there are a bunch of plastic stix. Different colors. You hold them up together then let them drop, and the object (well how *I* played it) was to remove a stick without disrupting the rest of the pile. Without moving everything else around. SO – Let us say that this is a pile of our life, and our lives are full of “baggage” it can be emotional, mental, physical…whatever. And the object is to remove one without disrupting the rest of your life. It’s hard when you’re trying so hard to just get rid of one thing and like a chain reaction, other stuff get’s moved around. It’s hard when it all starts looking the same. Just remember it’s always your hand that’s in control of pulling the stick from the pile, and understand it shouldn’t be a BIG deal if other things get shuffled when trying to organize your life, after all once you remove it – you have one less thing to worry about, right? How many stix do you have left to pick up? Is it really that BIG of a deal??? Are you making it harder than it should be? and a little hint – move the ones on top first, these will be easiest to get rid of in the long run

I shall leave you with this “there there, it’s allright, everything’ll be ok”

This is my horor-scope on my excite webpage, can I just say – it’s perfect for today and what’ts going on.

ARIES:
It’s your time for excitement. You’ll play with anyone that agrees with your interpretation of the rules. If you’re in the mood for romance, romance is definitely in the mood for you. Take your good luck, run with it and don’t ask questions. After all, a gift is a gift, and the giver might change his or her mind. Whatever you do, don’t mix this special day with past memories or future hopes. If you put it in that context, you could end up spoiling your own fun. Give yourself a break and live in the moment.

Today’s TOY: A Ball
Now, what makes a ball a ball? It’s shape? – it’s amount of fun? What sport it’s used with. Base-ball, Basket-Ball, Bowling-Ball, different balls for different things. Let us today go into who we are if we were a ball. Not to say those who play a sport that includes a ball are subject to BE that ball, at all. Ok!
*Looking into your childhood a bouncing ball could be one color or many colors. It was good for hand eye coordination, you didn’t get hurt if you were hit by it (well, not too much..hahaha) and if it went flat you could pump air right back in it and start playing again.
*Baseball Ball, small, fits in the palm of your hand and hard. Which means to me it’s hard to break but it’s small anyways so it doens’t pose too much of a threat to you, can still hurt if you get hit by one.
*Bowling ball. Heavier things, …hhmmm. Could still be colorful, not too much range in size and you KNOW it will hurt if you get hit by one
*Tennis ball – small, bright, bouncy, but you can’t fill it up if it breaks or goes flat -you have to just get a new tennis ball.
*Golf Ball – small, used to gettin hit, will NEVER go flat – but somepeople think you are UTTERLY boring, also some think you are very relaxing and challengin
Now there are MANY balls I’m sure we could go into but for basic sake let’s stick with just a few for this discussion. What kind of ball are you, and what kind of ball do you want to be for someone else?

If you go flat, or out of energy or bounce do you have friends who will pump you back up like a bouncy ball? Even if you think the ball is too big; or the problem rather is too big to pump up – would you let them try. Are you colorful? Or does one color pretty much cover who you are? Are you like a baseball ball where you tend to fit in the palm of someone’s hand, perhaps get tossed around, but you also know your strong enough to take a hit if one occurs – is it pretty hard to destroy you? Perhaps you are a bowling ball. You are so deep and heavy (not in the fat way!!!!!) about things it may take 2 hands to hold you up, but at the same time you can knock down multiple things in one swoop! You’re more solid. You’re type of fun is not bouncing around but knocking down what get’s in your way – in a good way I mean. And then there was the tennis ball. Small enough to be held in the palm of someone’s hand, bright with life, bounces off of hard difficult surfaces….but…if it gets crushed or flat….that’s it. No more playing. No more bouncing, still bright in color – but no life. And you can’t be pumped up. You are just, replaced. And lastly, the Golf Ball. Smallest of them all, yet…super hard and tough – slight bounce, hurt like hell if you get hit by one and people tend to swear at you when you get off course.

Hhhmmmmmm. What kind of person are you? What kind of Ball are you? It seems each ball has it’s own sort of fun – but it’s own bummer points too. Just like people. We have are good sides and bad sides, our up days and down days. When you’re down can you be picked up or are discarded without try. How tough or hard are you – how big or small are you; your personality not physical body.

It’s been a longweek and I’m looking forward to sleeping in, Today is Rikster’s Birthday. He’s 11. Tomorrow is EL’s Christmas Party (EL with whom I work) and JP is playing the roll of +1 as in Aiyani +1. There’s a Lakers game on so he’s sure to be infront of the TV with the other fans by tip-off, and MahRoomah graciously allowed me to the recipe for the Garlic Dip. I promise Kaz, I will not tell a soul the recipe. Not a Soul. Have a great weekend everyone, be careful of the flu that’s going around. Take care of yourself – I’ll be around and about this weekend and home in SLOville (SLOtown, kaza) with MahRoomah 12/19.

NEW YORK BOUND part 2, THE SEANAH LEBED DEPARTURE……RSVP to Kevin karaoke_star33 about Seanah’s Going away party. Saturday December 27, 2003. SkarieOkie slumber party/pot luck!!!!!!!! Only selected people will be allowed to staty, so Don’t ask to bring someone we don’t know we WILL say no. It’s for close friends and people who know and love Seanah and want to wish her luck. She’ll be driving across country alone with her puppy…..BIG puppy, so Bring some mula for the gas tank. She takes off January 3rd.

Your Years at Hogwarts by nevermindless
Name:
The Sorting Hat places you in:	Hufflepuff (Yellow and Black)
Subject you are naturally best at:	Care of Magical Creatures
Your favorite book:	Men who Love Dragons too Much
Pet you bring to school:	Jungle Owlet
You are most known for:	Being Prof. Sinistra's favorite student.
Created with quill18‘s MemeGen!

Again Again!

Your Years at Hogwarts by nevermindless
Name:
The Sorting Hat places you in:	Slytherin (Green and Silver)
Subject you are naturally best at:	Astronomy
Your favorite book:	Break With a Banshee by Gilderoy Lockhart
Pet you bring to school:	Red Spotted TOAD
You are most known for:	Being first to perform new spells properly.
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And……

Your Years at Hogwarts by nevermindless
Name:
The Sorting Hat places you in:	Ravenclaw (Blue and Bronze)
Subject you are naturally best at:	Care of Magical Creatures
Your favorite book:	Gilderoy Lockhart`s Guide to Household Pests by Gilderoy Lockhart
Pet you bring to school:	Burmese cat
You are most known for:	Drooling in Prof. Gilderoy Lockhart's class.
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And last but certainly not least

Your Years at Hogwarts by nevermindless
Name:
The Sorting Hat places you in:	Hufflepuff (Yellow and Black)
Subject you are naturally best at:	Arithmancy
Your favorite book:	Moste Potent Potions
Pet you bring to school:	Burmese cat
You are most known for:	You're HUGE crush on Harry.
Created with quill18‘s MemeGen!

Thanks to Seanah for letting me know I’m not the only one who couldn’t get it right away………these are fun…let’s do another one!!!!

What the???

Are you a God? by Demonac
Name:
God/Goddess type:	False God
Worshippers:	Truckers
They show devotion by:	Denying your existence.
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Again Again!!

Are you a God? by Demonac
Name:
God/Goddess type:	God of Mayhem
Worshippers:	Pillars of Salt
They show devotion by:	Making up holydays to get out of school/work
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One More Time!!!!!!!!

Are you a God? by Demonac
Name:
God/Goddess type:	God of Death
Worshippers:	Mental Patients
They show devotion by:	Proposing nuissance legislation
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OH MY GOD I HATE MY LIFE……….again? lol

Are you a God? by Demonac
Name:
God/Goddess type:	God of Evil
Worshippers:	Just one, but he's Bill Gates!
They show devotion by:	Eating Pork
Created with quill18‘s MemeGen!

Dude – No deals. NONE of these are working!!!! hahahahahah

You know, what good is a vent session if you get crapped on for doing it. This IS my LiveJournal page right? I mean, I try not to swear because I know my mommie reads these, and I try to simply get out my feelings. MORE THAN ONE OF YOU HAD TO CALL ME OR EMAIL ME AND SAY “is this about me????” Which says to me I’m no longer ALLOWED to vent on this page. It apparently is only meant for my general sarcasm and updates on my life OTHER THAN the negative stuff. Think of it this way – If you think *I* would say something to you if I was mad, I probably would, mostly because that’s the kind of relationship WE have – so don’t make it about you right away, this page is about me and MY feelings and when I’m cranky it will read cranky, when i’m happy it will read happy – follow?

On the upside:
Very Cute and Endearing. Roger Rabbit and I watched When Harry met Sally last night on the phone. Well, we both turned it on at the same time and sat on the phone for the whole thing. It was very fun. Especially the part where Harry and Sally are watching Casablanca, it was like We were watching them, watching something else – very fun – and very appreciated. I felt better after that.

worldofaiyani.com/mythoughts.toys
remember the key is we are like toy.

The toy today is CLUE. The game rather. Now briefly the idea of the “game” is to find out “who dun it.” ….It was Miss Scarlet in the Kitchen with the Candlestick….let’s look at this a few ways. This is about someone dying. hello???? You never meet this person – you don’t know if he’s a he or a she or the age or anything. And these Random other people are pointing fingers deciding who killed them? No deals. To disect more….and twist around………Let’s say these people (miss scarlet, col. mustard etc) all represent your negative feelings. Miss scarlet = angry
Mr. Green = sick
Ms. Peacock = blue/discontent
Ms. White = plain, that blah feeling you have
Prof.Plum = hurt/like bruised…that purpleblueblack color
Col. Mustard = annoyed/ack/rolling eyes

Let us assume the rooms represented are sections of our life where we as humans tend to act a certain way based on the company – not meaning we change who we are, just how we portray ourselves for the moment. These rooms become places like Work, Home, parents home, friends house, shopping mall, restaurant – and the such.

AND let us also assume the weapons are the words we choose to use.

Why is it our actions seem to speak louder than words. How can we as humans get so mad as to ponder the idea of terminating another life. And let’s think of it as not a termination of life itself, but OUT of YOUR life. follow? It is this person that we never meet that we on the occasion give a face too. It’s separating who’s who in your life and taking action when you don’t want them in your life anymore. You have to decide who you are before you let them go, or get rid of them. Where did they piss you off? Where did it go wrong? If you trace your steps did you really get pissed at work or at home? Who’s fault was it? Who “started it” you wonder. Maybe it’s just been building and this last person made you go overboard. SO – you become Miss Scarlet with the knife using sharp cutting phrases to get right under the skin quickly causing as much harm as possible, and you do this to who? That’s where YOU fill in the face. Or….you are Mr. Green, and not feeling so well take the revolver; something to say quickly to get it over in one shot. Are you sarcastic? Do you feel remorse after you’ve pulled the trigger? Are you Col. Mustard and so over it you get twisted in your own rope of words trying to explaing yourself AGAIN???

It’s all a game. Who wants to play YOUR game? Do you want to be on someone else board?; or your own? your terms…or theirs…. Sometimes you choose who’s on the board, sometimes you roll the wrong number and end up at the wrong place at the wrong time, and say the wrong things and all of a sudden it’s over and you don’t have a clue what happened.

Where are your thoughts today? Do you need to get a Clue? Does someone in your life need to get a clue? Who’s face do you see?, or are your eyes shut so tight you’re fighting blind and end up using the wrong weapon on the wrong person? ALSO….are you or have you ever been the person who’s face replaces the unknown face?

Be careful, it’s only a game/it’s only fun until someone gets hurt.

NOTE:
Toy thoughts are brought to you by opinion only and are subject to change without notice. If you have an idea for a toy discussion or a question regarding my opinion on a certain toy please post your idea or question here, or send and email to me and I’ll see what I can do. “Thanks so much and have a great day.”

Here’s the deal. You disappoint me, you’re out of the friend loop. I will talk to you because I know you, we are aqcuaintences – but I’m over this drama. I’m over people being to damn sensitive and expecting ME to understand when I obviously don’t, and I’m over trying to fix something YOU broke. It’s not time. That’s the answer to everything. Why did this happen? Why did that happen? How come this, how come that? The whole a time for everything and everything in it’s time dealio – yah, just keep repeating that to yourself. Don’t cry about it – I ‘m trying not to too. This is a very dry and honest moment I’m having. No, I dont’ expect anyone to FIX my problems, but the fact that you care says a lot. So don’t expect me to fix your problems either. yes I care what’s going on, I do!!! Yah, go ahead and ask for my opinion, ask what I think – I’ll tell ya, but be forwarned if you don’t like what you hear YOU ASKED.

Traditions. I don’t want to get into this, but if you have any and they change make sure everyone in the loop who may be affected by the such – knows so there aren’t any problems.

Welcome to the holidays – some of you asked so,this is what I want:
1. Boys to make up their mind
2. Girl to not go crazy when boys don’t make up their mind
3. everyone in my family to be happy.
4. Josh Kelly CD, Jason Mraz CD, Dido’s new CD, and Sarah’s new CD
5. to lose 45 pounds.
6 anything John or princess related
7. a bigger tv
8 a new job

And here’s a thought for you:
TOYS. We are like toys. Problems see the manual. Todays’ toy:

**Yo-Yo’s. Now boys are more yo-yo’s than girls. This is what can get confusing though. If boys are the plastic part of the yo-yo, the girls must be the string….hhhmmmmm SO, sometimes they are wrapped around our fingers, and sometimes we get tied to them and they do all they can to shake us off. sometimes we get knotted and you don’t know if it was your or them. ALSO – if the GIRL is the plastic part, the same would go for boys that are strings. Do you want them attached? Is it time for a new toy?

“have a great day”