Aiyani Mersai

I promise I’m enthused. But my cough is getting the best of me. I cough through the night – keeping myself awake, so my sleep deprovation (sp?) is going to affect the body of this entry.

I arrived in Nipas (Nipomo) to my sisters Cottage friday the 20th at midnight. I fell asleep on the couch afterwork and didn’t leave til about 9:45. And yah that means I was going between 75 and 80 miles an hour. My mommie didn’t like hearing that, but oh well. It was pretty much me and the highway; no other cars were really around after Camarillo.

Saturday I got to my mommie’s house by like 11am and hung out for a bit. Then went to see The Studio of Performing Arts production of JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR I was impressed for the stage it was on – it’s always cool to see them pull things off like that. Judas (Simon Lowrie) was having some vocal difficulties and rumor had it he was recovering from being sick, so I’m sure that explains it. Jesus was impressive – recognized him from SOMEWHERE and couldn’t figure it out. My friend Jack was in it, center stage alot of the time for group numbers – that was fun. And he gave me a little shout out in the program. Yay for that! I asked him later who Jesus was and he said it was his friend Mark, but didn’t know why *I* would know him. So when this Mark emerged from the dressing room Jack stopped him and introduced us. And Mark said he knew me from SKARIEOKIE at the Dunes. LOL – As SOON as he said that my mind WOOSHED back and scanned the files and BING came across the tall slender guy who occasionally sings “Don’t let the sun…come down on me” by Elton John and George Michael. I felt MUCH better after knowing where I recognized him from, and felt a little odd that he said I remember you – from SkarieOkie, you’re a great singer. um….hi you just did a Rock Opera – me? good singer? maybe not so much. Back to my mommies house, then to pick up Ro and Matty and to Sunset Dunes we drove. Good times, Rookie sang some song I’d never heard before but he was REALLY excited that Kevin got it – so YAY for new songs!!! and Brigteyes sang 2 songs by Evanesense so i called Seanah on the second one so she could listen. Home I went to sleep and prepare for sunday.

Got to my mommies house around 11:30 and we were on the road by 12noon – only an hour later than we had planned , but oh well. The drive through Dairy Land is not something to be desired, but all it meant was I was getting closer to John. We got to the hotel at about 4:30 and I crashed. Took a nap til about 6pm and got up and got ready. Black shoes, black pants, plain grey shirt. Hair flat ironed and minimal make up. I had called Eric earlier that day regarding where I should go for my tickets and he said they’d be at will call. So we left at about 6:30.

Just 8 miles from out hotel was the Save Mart Center where THOUSANDS of people were going to see John play. We got our tickets and mommie got a soda and we found our seats. We were on the side of the stage in the second row, parallel to the 10th row in the center from John.

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The couple and small girl next to my mommie and I were wearing green stickers that said “john mayer guest 2/22/04” I wanted on, but alas – I was not able to go backstage (THIS TIME!!!!!) Turns out though that lil family was Erics family, he got us all tickets and it was their first time ever seeing him play with a big Star if you will. They were really cute. My mom visited with them more than I did, but she’s a parent -that’s different. A cool moment was when John said Eric parents were in the audience and the intro to the next song was for them and he motioned to where they were sitting and I stood up and screamed and started clapping and John said “yah” and pointed at me (i assume, since i was the only one standing for that moment) and they went into the intro to 83. It was AMAZING.

It was by far the best concert MUSICALLY that I’ve been too, and the second best for seating – of course being in the front row was obviously the best. hahahaha, He played some INCREDIBLE solos, playing with one hand, playing behind his back, playing on the tuning keys….just breathtaking, heartstopping and mouth dropping playing.

For those of you that are wondering the songs he played were:
Back to you
Why Georgia
Clarity
Covered in Rain
No Such Thing
Daughters
My Stupid Mouth
Hummingbird
Bigger than my body
Come back to bed
Your body is a wonderland
83
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St. Patricks’ Day
Only Heart

I felt so priveleged to have been part of the evening at all. Hummingbird was new said John and it would be going on the next CD which he said he’d begin recording at the end of this year. Yay for more music!!!! Covered in Rain and Come back to bed were the ones where he went off playing crazy amazing solos and just rocked the house and carried us all with him on this emotional rollercoaster. The music actually came across very exciting than sad then pick me up then loud and it was just……I’m just….I’m in awe of him. He made some comment about dedicating daughters to the girls on Sex and the City – which was really funny. He said something about them just being sluts but they were getting away with it cause they were representing other women. It was funny – that’s all. St. Patty’s day is my favorite and added horns (trumpet and sax player) made it very magical for me.

I called Eric after the show and left him a message thanking him on the great seats and I owe him something big. Then later called Adam (from the band I brought home) to thank him as well, since Eric is really HIS friend and he kinda took care of me on this one. And he said they might be touring in CA again in the Summertime and he’ll go with me and have Eric take us backstage. I said anything was great.

Mommie and I got to mommies house by 6pm and I got home home by 10:30, with a brief 1 hour visit with Roger Rabbit in Orcutt. Dinner was fab by the way tell your mom I said thank you again for letting me impose – and your not terrible at Wheel of Fortune you just didn’t live with Kaza for 3 years – and she’s a MASTER at it. hahahahah

And now I’m at work, on my lunch break and utilizing my resources for personal reasons. Granted this is nothing new, but this time I clocked out. hahahahah

oh yah – and I told Antoan “moving” has become an option for me, as in to move away or home, and does anyone (except Rookie) want to guess what his first response was?

I no longer have access to the internet from home. You guessed it – the account wasn’t getting paid for. I have it here at work though – so I’ll be able to kinda keep in touch.

If you don’t already know, my bank account was closed because it was negative too long. SO – I obviously can’t pay for it that way. AND, hi – I can’t open a new account for 3 years unless I pay WaMu the $840 I owe them.

oh the life – so where should I move to?

So you either are, or are not wondering why I haven’t written anything in a few days. Here I am excited to go to SLOville last week, successfully get there and back, get a flat tire come tuesday morning, but then good news about John. Why the HELL am I not puting it all on paper – well, you know….not like “real” paper, but whatever. And now that days have passed, I’m more calm, recovered and moving forward with things – so this will lack the normal enthusiasm I provide for all you viewers. You know – both of you.

Briefly. I arrived in SLOville, well Nipomo actually to my sisters quaint and cute cottage by about 10pm. She had milk in the fridge, which is a TREAT by now!!!!! So I had some rice and milk and found some chocolate oreos and began to watch Superman the Movie. I hadn’t seen that in about 10 years I’d say, not all the way through at least. Well, sister came home and we chatted for EVER and finished watching superman and watched the first episode of Smallville again. Not having cable or satellite or an antenna or anything HELPFUL in watching today’s television I was eager to see what the fuss was about the new Clark stories. And this is the part where I say, “I’M IN LOVE!!!!” I can see why my sister loves the show and Tom Welling so much. It’s very creative and fun to see how everything is unfolding. Addicted now, my sister let me bring home her copies so I could catch up more. WAY EXCITED. THANK YOU MYFAVORITESISTER.

Saturday rolled around and a miscommunication between my social advisor and I left me calling WAY later than I should have. So we decided on drinks before BrightEyes and I went to see the Vagina Monologues at Cuesta with Daaaaaannnnaaaa. We went to Blue. I’d never been there – it was VERY good, I’m dreaming about the Sweet P martini. White Godiva chocolate liqeuer, vanilla vodka and chambord. so it tasted like a rasberry glass of yumminess. Brighteyes caught up with us in time for a drink, I was on my 4th by then…..light buz. Then Jax went off to dinner and Brighteyes and I went to our play. We go there after most of the audience had already chosen their seats, but we got to be in the Front Row!!!! And we all know how much I LOVE the FRONT ROW!!!! It was funny, hysterical, touching, and very blunt. Things you don’t normally talk about with strangers you know? It was very real and I think many people realized that they weren’t the only ones who have ever thought like that – or experienced things like that. WONDERFUL DAAAAANNNNAA, and “Thank you Cootchie Snortcher”

SkarieOkie was a mild blast. Nothing like they used to be, but those who still play or are a new eddition to the show are just as enthusiastic. I guess that’s my cry out to Kaza and Nahnnah and all those other kids that used to come out every saturday for Friends, Fun and entertainment. That and some drinkies. I got home to my sisters cottage by about 3am and crashed.

Sunday made it out to see Terry Sue and Michael Rosen in SLOville. It was nice to sit and chat, I hadn’t seen them in a while. Their dogs need some licking lectures though!!! MAN – maybe Im’ just not a dog person, but I can’t STAND it when dogs lick. I had to be off by 1pm to pick up Smurf for our date. Terry Sue and Michael were cute and sent me off with a little care package containg some dry foods and oatmeal and popcorn. Thank you so much you two!

Smurf and I made it out to see Hamlet at PCPA, courtesy of Roger Rabbit and I have to say I was very impressed. I’ve seen many Shakespeare shows – granted they were all High School, but some kids just get it and can totally deliver Shakespeare so that *I* can understand what’s going on. Smurf and his friend Greg are very good with Shakespeare. But sitting and listening and watching this show, having never seen Hamlet – only told what happens, I was very amused by the slight psychoticness of it all. WHO WOULD HAVE FIGURED? Who writes stuff like that? Oh,…..William Shakespeare. I became an immediate fan of the man playing Hamlet. I just….got it. And if you know me – that takes ALOT. Standing outside waiting to say hello and thank you to Roger Rabbit, I saw the Hamlet guy start to leave. Do I act like I’m 12 and say “hi, i’m your fan” or remember that he’s just guy. Just then Roger Rabbit came out of the building. I looked at him, said hi and pointed and said “i wanna meet him” and he laughed and called out to him and introduced us. Danforth you have a fan, this is Aiyani and her brother Ben. We shook hands I said, Hi you’re brilliant and let go, and he said thank you and I said no thank YOU. It’s just a really cool feeling when you believe in the characters so much, you understand what they are saying what they’re thinking, and then realizing that they are portrayals only. But it was Damn Cool to see it, and Damn Cool to shake his hand.

I went to my mommie’s house after I packed up at my sisters cottage and hung out til about 8pm. Then took to the road. No traffic, it was a good drive.

Work has been work, the only thing is making sure I get there safely. I had a flat tire when I went down to my car on tuesday so I woke up husband and asked him to help me change. He did, and I’ve been puttin’ around to and from work with a tricicle wheel hold up the left rear end of the princess mobile. Carefully driving I am, but it’s not good when Semi’s and School bus’ get up on me and try to run me over.

On the upper side of tuesday I got a call from Adam from the band I brought home and he said his friend got us tickets to see John in Fresno, but Adam has a show, so he can’t go – but *I* could still go and he would send his friend Erik myinfo. For “Aiyani + 1” for the fresno show. OH MY GOD AND I MIGHT HAVE BACK STAGE TICKETS. The main question seems to be one of 2, who am I taking? my mommie. and What am I wearing? so far, my black bowling shoes and black pants, not idea on the top. I don’t want a boob shirt, or a too tight shirt and too baggy shirt. Something in the middle. I’m not allowed to take a camera so we’ll see if I 1., even get to go backstage and MEET JOHN! (oh Jesus LORD) and 2., if that does happen – I WILL NEED PROOF.

That’s about it. Went through my Forever Keep box last night for no reason. Just wanted to look at stuff I guess. Found old cards and stuff. Things I wrote in School when I was like 8, girlscout scrapbooks from when I was like 6 and 7 -Yes….I was in Girlscouts. I only made it to Brownies though. All my awards and ribbons and yearbooks and trophies all in this treasure chest. It was just wonderful to look at them and remember.

Sometimes you just need that, you need the good memories.

ps. I’m lacking in Toy Talk because my lack of motivation – any one have a toy in particular they’d like me to discuss shoot me a message or an email. bye

I’ve also become a member on myspace.com, and hi5.com – they’re like friendster….myspace seems to be more fun – but you know it’s just stuff and things right?

A part of me wants to organize my thoughts and start with “I woke up at 7am wed 2/11/04 to be in Santa Monica by 9am for filming” but since that would only work as a one liner, and my thoughts are everywhere anyways, I guess I’ll just do my best. So if I jump around – sorry, then again; if you don’t know that I’m random like that you may want to read your friendship contract again.

I woke up at 7am wednesday……..and waited and waited and waited for them to shoot the scene I was in. Granted my “talking” scenes are over, doesn’t mean I’m not in anymore right? So I’m in done with hair, done with makeup, and done with wardrobe. I’m in my clothes waiting. They were ready for us by 4:30pm. Hmm…..maybe a waste of time, but I got to hang out with some fab people, laugh alot, watch alot, learn while watching, got paid more than i get paid at my normal 8-5job and quite frankly, this is exActly what I came out here for. But, oh no – “we’re losing our light” and by 6p we have to stop because the sun is gone. Can’t do a day shoot at night.

Did I mention the woman in her bra only wearing a bandana on her head and a nose ring. Oh, but did I mention she had a plastic SPIDER attached to her nose ring large enough to cover her MOUTH AND CHIN. Oh I didn’t? Oh, well yah – SAW THAT IN SANTA MONICA BY THE PIER.

By the pier in Santa Monica, bright blue ocean, sand, parking lots and all or a sudden…..rollercoasters. We had an apt they were using for filming and for storage right on the beach. GORGEOUS and from the third floor, the view is SUPERB.

We didn’t finish the scene so they asked if we could go in on thursday – oh! that’s today.

Today I woke up at 7am to be in Santa Monica by 9am. Fine fine fine. Hair make up, clothes – oneders, moving on. waiting waiting waiting. Oh now it’s lunch time. waiting waiting waiting

OK, we’re ready by 3pm. we do the same thing several times – “watch” I’m in a scene where I’m “watching” someone else walk away. That’s fine that’s great – my knee hurts a little though. why? oh because yah whatever I hurt it almost 2 weeks ago at Sunset Dunes BUT TODAY MY KNEE LOCKED AND I LOST MY BALANCE AND FELL DOWN THE STAIRS……….ouch. limping, made it to a seat where someone brought me Ibuprofen, someone else brought me ice, and someone else was bandaging my knee. No no no, no blood or broken bones, but definately not feeling good. felt fine yesterday, no deals today. I tried to not bring attention to it, I was rather embarrased and wanted to cry but not but of course everyone eventually wanders by ‘what happened, are you ok?’ so of course EVERYONE KNOWS I fell down the stupid stairs because my stupid knee decided it wasn’t going to hold me up for a second. And no, I’m not saying I’m fat. I’m saying I fell on my ass. …….so standing and walking are difficult – but I’m sucking it up and letting the small shooting sensation explode in my leg evertime he says “cut” or “action”. It’s what I signed up for right? OH, BUT WAIT. yah, that was all fun and wonderful then we had a scene where we were all KNEELING. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET DOWN TO THE GROUND IF MY LEG WON’T BEND OR STRAIGHTEN WITHOUT MAKING ME LIGHTHEADED FROM THE SHARP PINCHY PAIN? Oh, I don’t. I suck it up. I stand until the last second the 2….did you see that TWO people help me kneel down and fix my skirt while i try to balance the weight of my body to one knee, and try to not make it look like that’s what i’m doing. We did that about 8 times and the sun went down. But we only got some of the angles necessary. SO, I will be needed tomorrow.

Dawn, DOS at LAXHD – doesn’t really like that so much by the way. Her message after I left mine was “please call me at home” and her number followed. We spoke tonight and she said “I need you to come into work tomorrow” and she waited for my response, which was well I can be there when we’re done shooting, I HAVE to be there – they’ve already shot me in the scene I need to be there for the other angles. To which she says “I need you to come into work tomorrow, we still need to finish month end reports from january” my response was something like “well, I have to wait for Gina to send Tina the new Windsor reports for this year, then Tina needs to fill them out, then *I* can fill out mine- and if she’s done then I will fill them out tomorrow AFTER i’m done filming. I should only be needed half day anyways. “well, good luck tomorrow – put your best face forward”…..thank you.(?) “bye” bye.

yah….what? hhmm….so I’ll get to Arcadia after i’m in santa monica then go home and pack then be on my way to SLOville. Quite frankly money that I’ve set aside for certain things will have to now go towards gas. So brighteyes – we’re still going to the play, don’t know if i can do dinner. jax do you still wanna play? does anyone wanna still be my friend even though I’m poor???? God I can’t wait til i’m outta of this problem we call a “financial hole”

i know i know, i’ve been so positive lately, well, at least optimistic – but sometimes it still slaps me in the face and I get bank notices and moments where I think my new boss wants to just fire me – afterall she needs someone who is actually available to WORK. I’m not pissy about it, it just depresses me sometimes.

To leave on a happier note, though my camera succesfully ate 2 rolls of film and was acting wierd, she seems to be behaving right now – and I have taken more pics of the cast and crew. so i should have those available to view in the next couple weeks, you know when I have the money to develop them. But i’m excited!!! about pictures. I LOVE THEM.

Now, I have no degree in music. No place to speak of what is good or bad, but I’m allowed to have an opinion. I do like the new church I’ve attended a couple times. My sister found it. It’s very small but, in all fairness – at least they all speak english REALLY WELL. I don’t know if you go to church or used to or whatever, but it’s always a little funny to hear 2 grown women singing into not so great mics and they sound 8 years old. Straing for the high notes. Saying things like “woah ho ho” and “Lo ho hord” It’s just silly. On the upperside the pastor made me laugh, and sometimes that’s difficult for a pastor – only Pastor Ron at the Naz has pulled it off successfully. And that’s a real laugh not a “haaaa he’s trying to be funny” moment. So there you go. I’ve been checking my spiritual pulse, if you will. And I rather liked the sermon here in Burbank.

No news from Barbara at Bur Cal Mgmt for the apartment. Don’t know if that’s good or bad. I took over the rest of my half of the rent today and husband will take his over this week, we will have to pay a late fee $50, wah wah wah.

My knee feels ALOT better today. Can’t straighten ALL the way yet or bend it like when you squat down to pick something up, but it’s almost there. And let’s all remember this was Roger Rabbits fault and no, he was not flirting with me – we were sparring and he ONLY won because I was drunk. Thanks. and if you don’t get the flirt part go read it gwydion82

Check your pulse it’s proof that you’re not listening to the call your life’s been issuing you, a rhythym of a line of idle days. Scared of the world outside you should go explore. Pull on the shades and wander the Great Indoors. The Great Indoors.

Lamp light makes the shadows play, and posters take the walls away, the TV is your windowpane the view won’t let you down. So put your faith in a late night show, I’ll be you didn’t even know – depends on how far out your go, the channel numbers change. Scared of the world outside you should go explore. Pull on the shades and wander the Great Indoors….though lately I can’t blame you. I have seen the world – and sometimes wish your room had room for two.

So go unlock the doors. And find what you are here for- Leave the Great Indoors, the great indoors.

Check your pulse it’s proof that you’re not listening to the call your life’s been issuing you, the rhythym of a line of idle days, of idle days.

The Great Indoors; Room for Squares
John Mayer

My Interpretation:
I guess it’s not so much of being scared as it is not being adventurous. So many times we just stay indoors. We have our Televisions our computers and telephones and why leave? There’s so much out there, and it all could mean something different to me than it does to someone else – but is that something I even care to consider? Why not just stay where I know I’m comfortable? Where I know what I like and can wear whatever I want to? I guess it all just comes down to….knowing. Or the knowledge of knowing…….knowing what I DO like and what I WOULD be willing to do instead of. Maybe if I got a good offer I’d leave the great indoors – but as it stands, there aren’t any; and sometimes that’s ok too.

I’ve now successfully made the mac n chez with EXTRA chez to help the taste along, no milk so had to use a tinge of water – i’ve had to do it before so I’m getting good at it. hahahaha, and now for a movie I suppose. But which one? Watched Honeymoon in Vegas last night and no special features on it, so…..hhmmm…..kaza? any ideas?

spoons.

I miss having money to do with as I please and as I see fit. I want so badly to update my “Johnra” (as Kevin puts it!!) I want some new John clothes. There are new sweatshirts, and zip up sweatshirts, and jackets and t-shirts and I DON”T GET ANY OF IT BECAUSE I’M POOR AND HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WONDERING IF I WILL HAVE ELECTRICITY TOMORROW. I don’t get to see him in concert, I don’t get to buy new things and i’m pouting about it.

Yes I’m feeling very materialistic right now. On the upper side there was a brief interview with he and Jason Pullmand and Lisa Fox from Star 98.7 and he flat out said there’s no one in his life right now. And if he meets the right girl he’ll just pack up and go with her. hhm…..note to self – LOSE WEIGHT BEFORE PURSUING JOHN. wah wah wah, i know i know

“then go to the gym”
don’t have a memebership anywhere – and I can’t afford one either
“there are other things you can do”
running around my neighborhood and lifting buckets of water does not sound fun or safe, let’s keep in mind I have bad knee (this week)
“didn’t your sister send you her old workout tapes?”
yes….and? hahahaah

I’m actually not feeling all that negative about much. Yah, I want to lose weight – what’s new?
yah I’m in love with John and haven’t even met him (yet)- what’s new,
yah I’m poor and am struggling with problem after problem – what’s new?
yah my bank account is negative, has been since early december – What’s new?
Yah I could always move back to SLOville and “regroup” but then I’d feel like a failure and bla bla bla – what’s new?

So I guess this means I have nothing “new” to report. so why do I even bother writing on this thing? ???…….don’t know why I do most things and frankly – What’s new?

I’m hungry ………WHAT’S………NEW?

I HAVE NO FOOD…….WHAT’S NEW………that’s a lie i have one more box of mac n chez my mommie gave me! I’ll eat that.

I was at work today – that’s new for a saturday

“new” church I found tomorrow again – that’s sort of new

I need to buy the Evanesense CD already, I’ve been wanting that for MONTHS now

I get to film again on 2/11/04

I will be in SLO ville next weekend, maybe at skarieokie i’ll sing something…..NEW

And in closing:
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