Aiyani Mersai

Um…what do I want to start with? What do YOU as the readers / audience want to know about first in the life of aiyani, the worldofaiyani.com if you will? Relationship status? Work Status? Audition status? It’s like to trying to get inside your brains, which I’m more than willing to do, but it can be difficult if we don’t hang out as much as we used to, the connection depletes you know? So I shall answer as things come to my own brain.

Work Status:
Embassy Su-ites Arcadia will keep me on as a Contracted Revenue Manager through this coming week and starting next week I will train as their Sales Administrator. Yay. I will have a job-job. It is very close to home – 17miles. No traffic, I love the people, it was recently renovated so it’s clean it’s safe it’s pretty, and the selfish part of me says “and the really good part” is they will let me leave for audtions. I have to take a paycut because it’s not a management position, it’s like the reception for the sales and the assisstant to the DOS and Sales Manager. BUT I don’t know anything about Sales anyways so it will be a good place to start. This will also eventually make me more valuable to any hotel because I will no pretty much how it ALL works. But it is full-time, Mon-Fri, and I can go to SLO when I want for Skarie-Okie!!!!! However, I think I will also look for another bartending job, except though I wanted a Club position or similar I think if I’m going to use my brain during the day aswell…..I’ll need sleep…so maybe bartending at a restaurant that closes by 11 or midnight would be the smart thing to do. We shall see how it all unfolds, and of course – I will keep you update.

Audition Status:
I auditioned last wednesday (Kevin’s Birthday!) for a film called “States of Grace” and the gave me an immediate call back for this tuesday. She said she hadn’t seen anyone come in that even looks like one of the parts and thought I did great. Then she asked me if I could play basketball….my response “um, I did in P.E in High School” and she laughed and said great. We’ll see you next week. So I’ll let everyone know how THAT goes.

Money Status:
Allthough I’m used to being poor, not having money living from pay check to paycheck and wondering if tomorrow I’ll beable to put gas in my car or eat for that matter, I am happy I will have a paycheck every 2 weeks. I don’t have a great deal of bills: Rent, Car payment, Car insurance, House Phone, Electricity, & Gas. (mommie I’ll beable to send you money for celphone stuff yay!!!!, thank you for your patience and help)BUT even though they are not alot, when you have them and no money it’s overwhelming….95% of you will understand this. Though money will be coming in steadily it won’t be alot so the second job is still something I feel I will have to do. But we’ll see. And Husband got a job too, so we will be ok soon here.

Weight Status:
I joined Miami Fitness, $25 a month. It’s perfect and like 1/2 mile from home. Has the weights I want and Cardio machines. I don’t swim laps, or play racketball, or stuff like that. No classes though, those will be missed but it’s ok. It is close, it is not expensive and I am motivated to get there and make it happen. The goal? lose 40 pounds of chunk, but adding pounds of muscle is good. Don’t really have a “weight” goal I should say but inches and the way I actually LOOK will change. If I weigh as much as I do now but it’s distributed differently, and I don’t look 6 months pregnant ALL the time – I’ll be a happy camper. Hahahaha.

Music Status:
I keep writing songs and am able to hear them in my head but getting the music out onto the piano or guitar is a whole different situation. I can play like 8 of my songs on the piano and 3 on my guitar. There’s still like 5 or 6 that have yet to be attacked. I need someone who can just play what hum or something so I can get it out of my head. But, eventually I suppose. I’ve been thinking of taking guitar lessons again. Took them for 2 months right before I moved, but I’d like to continue that. But no lessons on the piano, I just understand it in my own way and lessons would screw me up, I’ve been hitting those keys for 10 years now, and just would rather go with how I know it. You know?

What I’m into Status:
*Favorite Colors: (still) Silah and Lavendah, and Leopard Print
*Princess Stuff (still) Hi, thanks to Seanah and BrightEyes for my new Disneland hat that says “princess” on the back, my 3 prong princess sign on the front and the best part. MY NAME EMBROIDERED ON THE BACK!!!!! You know it’s special and important because you have to have stuff MADE with my name on it, “Aiyani” is not found on any keychain. you know?
*Wonderwoman, Lordy I want to be her.
*Doritos, Nacho Chez
*7&7’s
*1% milk
*Dark Chocolate
~~That’s enough of that…hahaha

Friend Status:
Um, are you still my friend? Do we talk? Do you miss me? Wanna hang out? If no, then no deals – you’re not my friend anymore. If yes, then we’re still cool. We’re still friends.

(The awaited) Relationship Status:
Well, I’m not married, I think I’m single. I have my crushes, they have theirs. I’m in a place where flirting is permitted, because I’m not “serious” with anyone. I don’t kiss and tell, but kissing is nice and good. Names I have, but you won’t unless you ask – and even then; I might not share it with you. Well…..Husband,PG, Kaza, BrightEyes, and Seanah know – but don’t ask them, it’s not their business to tell you mine. hahahahah. Juggling is not something I like to practice, however again….no commitments exist, so as long as I’m not juggling anything heavy I don’ tsee the problem. Do you? I’m having fun. And that’s what counts. I don’t have time for a boyfriend right now, but if a particular boy asked me to be more serious with him I would. He doesn’t read this, I don’t think, and he lives close to me. I can’t do the long distant thing, I just can’t. (this is why John and I can’t be together right now….hahaha) That’s all you get. …….Yes I’m still in Love with John and WILL marry him and you are invited to the wedding. This means I’ll live in New York by the way, this is bad news for mommie and family, but good news for Kaza, Seanah, and of COURSE John. hhhahahaahaah

Other Things:
I miss buying shoes (especially with mahroomah). I like Apple juice in the morning as apose to OJ. I don’t like scrambled eggs anymore. It’s FINALLY starting to cool down here, so the A/C is used less (good for elec. bill!) I have yet to take my free commercial and comedy classes – didn’t have time before, now I will. It’s beginning to look alot like Christmas – I LOVE SNOWFLAKES and they are EVERYWHERE!!!!! I will not be in town until Thanksgiving weekend, was gonna be there 11/21 – 11/23, but change of plans (wink wink BrightEyes and Seanah).

See Ya’s:
for mahroomah – Macaroni out
for BrightEyes and Seanah – yyyaaaaahhh, no; ok bye
Sunset Dunes – Goodnight Neverland
Jax – who loves you?
PG – ookkkkkkaaaayyyyy bye (and you call me second or third in 1 1/2 weeks!)

Catch you Kats Later……(yah, almost done with that one…almost)

Someone remind me for the 112th time not to have coffee at night, or invest in DECAF!!!!!! I purchased Finding Nemo today….duh…..with money I should’ve bought groceries with or put gas in my car with, but this is a priority you know???!!!!

I have an audition tomorrow for a film called States of Grace, we’ll see how that goes.

My last day at LAXHD (Embassy Su-ites) is supposed to be Thursday 11/13/03…..but…..rumor has it Embassy Su-ites Arcadia may ask me to stay on as their new Sales Administrator……TOTALLY different then what I’m used to or good at for that matter. But a job is a job right now, and money is also a priority. Bills consist of Rent, Car Payment, Car insurance, Phone, electricity, and Piano. Doesn’t seem more than a handful when I write it out, but it seems to always take over my wallet and my bank goes in and out of liking me for it. Hopefully in the next couple months we’ll get cable and DSL, yes I’m one of the few people left on Dial-Up, it’s a work in progress…….groceries before DSL groceries before TV. At least that’s what I try to keep telling myself.

Today Mr. Cunningham played a little “Neon” by John for me over the phone, he’s learning how to play John…..umm….score major double-digit points right there. I told him I was going to make him a CD of alot of Acoustic John so he could learn to play it then give me a concert. He said ok, so we’ll see.

It’s 12:45, officially Kevin’s Birthday. I don’t get to be there but hopefully he knows I’m with him in spirit. I LOVE YOU KEVIN!!!!!! =D To provide a list:

Birthdays:
Kevin 11/5
Daaaannna 11/8
Randy Bear 11/12
Ruben (knight from medieval times) 11/25
Cortney 11/28

50 Shopping days til Christmas and a countdown is yet to be announced for Kaza’s return to CA for Christmas.

And I believe that’s it for now, nothing too exciting or overwhelming, I’m coming off the high when Adam (from the band I brought home) called me and said one of his friends was going on tour with John, I still get excited but am able to control my breathing and screaming now…hahaha

Husband and I are already listening to Christmas music…..and I may be in SLOville the weekend of 11/21 – 11/23………maybe.

Catch you Kats Later (I think I’m almost done with this one by the way)

PS. Brighteyes and Seanah are going to be in LA LA land this weekend, am extatic to see them and play – yay for friends.

I really don’t have much to say. I read Kevin’s Journal um…..karaoke_star33 ….and it made me think of this song. I also think of this song when ever no one understands me but Kaza because it was a “rommah” thing. And then there are times when you just feel or act different for no reason that you can explain, but your friends and those who love you will let you go through your phase and be there for you through it, and will be there for you after it.

John Song:

Suppose I said I am on my best behavior. And there are times I lose my worried mind. Would you want me when I’m not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else.

Suppose I said colors change for no good reason. And words will go from poetry to prose. Would you want me when I’m not myself? Wait if out while I am someone else.

And I, in time, will come around. I always do for you.

Suppose I said you’re my saving grace. My grace. Would you want me when I’m not myself. Wait it out while I am someone else.

I’ll catch you Kats Later.

For Your Comfort & Enjoyment:
AOL IM: aiyginalydia
MSN IM: princessaiy@msn.com
YAHOO IM: princessaiy

are we following the pattern? Anywhere else I should be on folks? You let me know, and I’ll see about making it happen.

For Informational Purposes:
Praise God!!! It rained. I haven’t looked online at all to see how the rain affected the fires, but I know it had to have helped because it rained ALL day yesterday. Happy Halloween. I sporteda Floor Length Red Vinyl Dress and a Dark Cloak and carried a candlestick. As in….It was Miss Scarlet With the Candlestick. Elizabeth in Sales was Miss Peacock with Wrench, and Mike in Sales was Mr. Green with the Rope. It was SUPER fun. My costume received a gigillion compliments and have to say it is all because of Shawn Jaques who gave both the dress and the cloak to me. Thanks Jax, I rocked because YOU rock! =D Then I went to a party with my friend Dan Cutter and that was pretty cool too. There was a guy there that looked like maybe a Tom Cruise Cousin or something at the end of the evening I went up to him and said “Hi, what’s your name?” he said Brandon. (Why are there so many of them????) and without telling him my name I said “Well Brandon, it was lovely looking at you tonight, thank you.” He laughed a little and said “no thank you!” Then I grabbed the 2 boys in their fireman outfits and said “Gentleman, I must have a picture with you” They both wrapped their arms around me and and took a quick pic. When Dan and I were leaving I said to one of the fireman who were outside “Goodnight, it was wonderful staring at you this evening.” And he laughed (too, is that a funny thing to say???) and yelled out as we were leaving “why are you leaving.” I responded with it was late….it was midnight, but we were both tired you know, long day; long week. But yah, so I said “it’s late, do you have a name?” He said Nick. And I said Nick, it’s been a pleasure. Then I turned and started to walk again and said I’ll never see you again. And that’s the way of it right folks? No one needs my name, sometimes it’s good to be a mystery (mystery Roger Rabbit, member that conversation? hahah) Sometimes it’s best not to tie yourself up into anything, or make yourself known. Sometimes you just have to let things go; and that’s the way this wheel keeps workin’ now.

For No Good Reason:
Then I woke up at 8:48. WHHHHHYYYYYY!!!!!!!!??????????? It’s SATURDAY, a day to SLEEP IN, and I didn’t. So I’m sure I’ll take a nap here sometime today. BUT today is a cleaning day. I must attack my bathroom and my room and the living room. Husband has been doing a great job keeping the house up it is those things that a boy doesn’t think of though, like the pictures on the walls need to be dusted etc. And shelves need to be dusted. You know; stuff stuff. This is the kind of stuff that bores people……….I apologize.

For a Person who’s never read this or knows it exists:
You ever have a feeling where you are in a place where you’re sure you have all your friends that you will ever have….and that’s ok? I’ve been feeling that way lately. Like I’ll meet people, and if you know me at all I get attached easily to fun people and the like, but lately – I’m content with the friends I have. I feel safe and secure that they will always be here for me, and no part of me feels a friendship void, if you will. And then someone comes in your life, and you just have to wonder if they’re there for you or your there for them. And you’re comfortable either way but only after you’ve voiced it. Only a couple of you will actually guess or care about who I might be talking about. But something pulls me to an individual lately and not for a particular reason, just so I’m “here” for them. You know? And as long as they know it, I’m ok. Follow?? I don’t know, a wierd tangent I suppose but do you really expect any less from me?

For laughs, and if you’re poor – you’ll follow:
I went grocery shopping a couple days ago. Overdrew my account to buy food and toilet paper. Seahnah!!! FOOD!!! I HAVE SOME NOW!!!! ahhahaaahahah. Don’t know how long it will last, but I won’t starve over the weekend.

For You to Know, Learn, and Love:
Finding Nemo comes out on the 4th, NEED IT, WANT IT, BUY IT, OWN IT, RENT IT, GET IT NOW!!!!! So excited. And…..Matrix Revolution will be out this month too at the theatre’s and next month will be the Last Lord of the Rings. I would like to own Sweet November, So I Married an Axe Murderer, and The Jerk on DVD soon. I watch Absolutely Fabulous like EVERYDAY because Husband has them on DVD, and I have a sudden urge to read a book……suggestions on this book are invited. Please comment below or send me an email.

For no apparent reason, but apparently reasonable to mention because it involves you:
If you were in SLOville for halloween I hope you were at Sunset Dunes and I hope everyone was safe.

For Closing Purposes:
Catch you Kats Later.

ps. I miss Samson & Dennette, and how big is Logan Patrick-Murdock now you think?

At 1:42am this morning my cellular telephone rang. It said “Adam calling” I answered our conversation follows:

A: Are you asleep
me: No
A: are you lying
me: Yes
A: (laughs) Sit up
me: (i do)
A: Who are you, who you talkin to
me: this is Aiyani, i’m speaking with adam from the band I brought home.
A: Good, how are you
me: fine, half asleep
A: You still gonna come and visit in few weeks?
(then we discussed on changing the dates in which I’d be visiting and came to a conclusion of 11/14 – 11/16)
A: So, anyways I called because I was talking to this really good friend of mine who plays the trumpet. He’s AMAZING and he told me today he was in Pennsylvania because he was invited to go on tour with John Mayer…
me: ARE YOU F*ING SERIOUS
A: (laughs) Yes, and uh…he said they don’t have any tours coming to the west coast as of yet but if and when they do we’ll try to get you backstage to meet John.
me: ADAM I CAN’T BREATHE!!!!!!!!!
A: Well breathe!!, I thought it was cool but I knew you’d be freakin’ out.
me: YES FREAKING OUT, CAN’T BREATHE!!!
(we spoke a little bit more….but…HELLO??????? As mahroomah and I would say “it’s a sign!”)

I got out of bed told the husband, told PG this morning, called and told Kaza, called my mommie, called Daaaaaannna, when I got to work I told the sales kids and Mentor and then hopped online to write this. Didn’t sleep much last night, kept waking up and repeating the conversation to myself….HELLO??????!!!!!!!!!!! I don’t really know how I’m going to get thru this today or anyother day. It’s been suggested NUMEROUS times that I should get my ass on a plane with Adam and fly to wherever they are playing…..can’t say I wouldn’t but I can say my bank account wouldn’t. You know since as of today I have $4.75 in it. PG brought me groceries last night, water; OJ; yogurt; pasta; pasta sauce; and cup o’ noonles…she’s silly but I was very thankful. I live in this semi-hell hole but today I don’t seem to care. I had a fabulous conversation with Mr. Cunningham yesterday, a fun conversation with Plantboy via the internet last night, didn’t speak to Neil, and received a WONDERFUL call from Adam. All is well I suppose. Friends are supportive of the John Movement, if you will, and today I have a granola bar and yogurt for lunch. I’m wearing a black skirt that goes to my knees and black and silver sparkly tanktop and silver shoes. Put my hair up all pretty and am wearing some makeup. Today, I feel pretty, and witty and bright.

On an entirely different and serious note. Fires are reaching 200 and 300 feet high and are surrounding the outskirst of where I live. The closest is 30 miles away. Some may say that’s far and I’m lucky (this I know) and some may say it’s too close come home. At any rate I promised my mom I’d pack a bag and if she called and said come home I would. If they start to close any more freeways I’ll be trapped in a little box surrounded by fire. That would be wierd. But as of now, I’m safe and lucky and there’s never been a fire scare like this in the History of California, so I’m also cautious.

Seanah sang “Funny Honey” for me last night at The Dunes and Kevin called so I could hear it. Can I say SHE ROCKS!!!! This girl is amazing, and funny, and beautiful and I don’t want her to go to New York. But it will make her happy so I say…ok…and I’ll visit (and probably eventually move my ass out there to be with all 3 of them )

Allright I believe that’s it or now. I’ll catch you Kats later

I arrived in Pismo Thursday evening at aboy 7pmish. “Sticker Boy” (as BrightEyes and Seanah have decided to call him) and I went to subway for a sandwich then hung out for a bit. Chit Chatted, then I met up with the girls at Harry’s for a little SkarieOkie time. Tired by 11pm ish / 11:30ish, I went home and slept.

And guess who had to work at 6:30 in the morning….so guess who’s alarm went off at 6am!!! Thank God I could get back to sleep. He left me his keys so I could get back in during the day if I needed to. I successfully locked myself out, and successfully broke back in. Don’t know if that’s a good thing, or a bad thing. And no, I won’t tell you how I did it, but I will tell you I did not have to climb down any chimneys. Showered, I went to Los Osos to hang out with Daaaaana for a few hours. We went to Lenny’s (man I miss tasty food!!) We both had the new Chicken Ranch Melt. And can I say if you want fat/tasty goodness…..get that!!! We tootled about in Morro Bay a bit, then she had a job interview so I tootled alone for a bit, then she came back and we went back to her house and hung out and talked more. Then I went back to Pismo and got ready to go see Smurf’s play (Peter Pan at the Clark Center) and originally Neil was going to go with but he had to watch his son…..yes his son. So cool cool, I go with my family and sit in the front row and it was MAGNIFICANT!!!!!!! Amazaing for a high shchool production, and quite frankly better than some of the productions I’ve seen about in the community. I’m sure having more toys to play with on stage and the size of the place has a HUGE play on how great a play can come out, so kudos to the AGHS Players, if you will. My brother got to be harnessed up and flew about – quite cool. Then it was to some bar who’s name escapes me where Kevin was to singing with Trouble in Paradise. He was suppsed to sing more but the guy he was “subbing” for, if you will, showed up, so he only got to sing a few times. But when he did….you KNOW it rocked – I mean come on…it’s KEVIN!!!!!! Then to Pismo to Sleep.

Saturday to Rikster’s soccer game – I thought it was at like 8:15, but my mother later told me it was at 10:45, so that was good. But guess who had to get up and go to work at 6:30? That’s right!!! So guess who woke up at 6a!!! That’s right. BUT I was able to back to sleep for a couple more hours. Woke up showered went to the game. We won 3 to 2, and the Rikster made one of those goals so that was AWESOME to see. He’s so good at everything he does, it’s amazing – my brothers are AMAZING. Then to Mark Cunningham’s house in Los Osos to talk music. He wants me to sing with them sometime and maybe go on tour with them next Summer, that would be cool. He made me dinner and can I say YUUUUUUMMMMMMMYYYYY!!!!!!! We shared a bottle of Red wine and eventually got a little loopy and started dancing about the living room. Hahahah – good times, noodle salad. Then it was “home” to change and get ready for Saturday Night at the Dunes. Colin showed up, Ro showed up and her old roommates Dave & Alice. It was fun. All that Jazz was sung again by your’s truly and all ther girls were dancing with – it was great. Then Kevin made some classic remark about how it may have looked like we choreographed all that, but we didn’t – we just really can “do” that. It was funny. Ro sang Cabaret and Seanah and I pulled off some fun chair tricks. I only drank 2 drinks, got tired and went “home” at about 1:45. Then the Sticker boy called me to tell me he was going to stay with his friends who got drunk, and I instead stayed at my mom’s and he brought them to his pad. No BIG deal, but the timing could’ve been better. Couldn’t he have called at an earlier time so I wouldn’t have to wake my poor mommies ass up to tell her to unlock her door? Whatever. Sleep was the most important thing on my mind. So settled now (and yes I remembered to set my clock back) at what’s normally 2:30 became 1:30 and I climbed on the comfy couch at mommies. 6:30am rolls around and the whole house started to stir to get ready for church. NOT IN A GOOD MOOD. I WOULD LIKE TO SLEEP.

I so I got up, kisses Riki and told him to tell his mom I’ll call her when I get home. (Among other reasons that I don’t feel like listing) I left AG by 7:30am and made it home by 10:30. I had to cancel lunch with Shawn Jaques and I missed Step-Brandon’s play. I felt awful. I still do, but I had to get back here. And on the way here the skies in Ventura went from Blue to an imidiate orange grey. All the fires had been carrying on over the weekend and I drove right into this wall of smoke and ash. Trying to conserve gas, I didn’t turn on the AC but I was DYING of heat. I hopped on the 126 (courtesy of Seanah) and drove by at least 6 fires. One of which seemed to be only a few hundred yards away had everyone on the freeway pulling over, so as not to creat a traffic jam. I was on of those people. Turned on my hazards and pulled to the side of the road. I’d never seen anything like it. I just stared and watched this Red wave take over all these trees and the black smoke as it raised turned into grey smoke and blew EVERYWHERE. I don’t know how long I stayed and stared but eventually I pulled myself away and got back on the freeway. Before that one there were 2 smoke piles – meaning I couldn’t see flames, and after there were 3 smoke piles and when the 126 turned into the 5 South there was this line of fire, that looked like someone drew a line and lit it on fire. It went over like 3 hill tops and I tried to just pay attention to the road, but instead, like everyone else I just took my time passing it and glanced once in a while. I’ve NEVER seen anything like that with my own eyes. It’s a different reality when it’s on TV, and when it’s just off the Highway you’re driving on. So I got home hopped online for a very brief moment, took my aggressions out on Roger Rabbit – which I would like to formally apologize for, and will….poor guy was just trying to be cool and easy going and bit his head off. So I went to sleep. woke up at about 3:45 and decided to make food. Oh but wait….WE DON’T HAVE ANY so I opened the last can of corn and the last can of green beans and cooked them and made some rice. Poured the veggies over it and added a little teriyaki sauce. Can’t say it was the best thing I’ve ever had – but it was food and beggars can’t be chosers. Watched The Matrix then hopped online to update this bad boy and the husband put on Matrix 2 that he borrowed from a friend. So I think I’ll go watch it.

Let it be known that I’m extremly POOR and will not be able to make it SLOville for sometime. Please keep me in your prayers, your good thoughts, your happy vibes (minds clean kids; my mommie reads this!) and whatever other positive stuff you can send to me. Everyday there is a new challenge and so far none of them are getting better. No I won’t tell you that to your face. Aries’ are so if you ask me how I am I’ll only tell you what I want you to know, or what you want to hear. I don’t like to talk about my problems. I’ll go over them with really really really really really close people, and don’t take offense if you’re not one of them. I don’t like to let negativity around me get on you – I try to keep you safe from that. I do it because I love you and the few people I do trust such things with have been through much more with me. No one better get mad at me for any of this either – I can’t take it right now. Get mad at me later when I have the energy to fight back, deal?

I Miss:
Mah Roomah, Randy Bear, My brothers, My sisters, my mommie and Randy, my dadda and terri, PG, Seanah & BrightEyes, Vickie & Kevin, Rich and his amazing BBQ’s, Cortney & Caleb and Randy, Colin, the ease of SLO life, Roger Rabbit, Port o’ Sub sandwiches, clean air, cool breezes, talks with Jax, Hobees, Freedom to buy shoes when I feel like it, Retail Therapy in general, Food Therapy. I miss the feeling of not worrying what will become of what’s happened to me, I miss the feeling of ease the feeling of comfort. I know this is what I asked for but it’s still difficult. I hate feeling alone even though I know I’m not. I’m fine being single, I don’t NEED someone but it’s nice to be thought of in a new way. It’s nice to have someone’s eyes glance this direction and the feeling be mutual.

Be proud of me, I haven’t mentioned being fat or ugly around sticker boy or anyone “new” to my life. It’s a work in progress, I shall work on not saying it around all you “regular/old” people in my life. Man that sounds awful too doesn’t it? I’m sorry, I’m retarded and words are not making there way to my brain or fingers right now. YOU KNOW WHAT I’M TRYING TO SAY. so I will leave it at that. I shall go and attempt to watch the rest of the movie, and go to sleep at a reasonable hour and get up and go to work tomorrow and hope. Hope that all will be all right, and all will find it’s way to the surface, because as of now – I’m drowning.

Catch you Kats…..Later

I’m working VERY HARD at work right now……Yesteday? A bit on the frustrated side at LAXHD (Embassy Su-ites Arcadia). RFP’s up the Yin Yang, Rate structures incorrectly built for November and December, Value Levels incorrectly restricted for Rose Bowl, and Breeders Cup (Some horse thing, I don’t know) is taking OVER the hotel. Can’t say that they’re very appreciative. We are almost done with the renovation so I shouldn’t sell a room I really don’t have yet, but they want me to because they are REALLY important. Sorry your business is not repeat business, it is not that great of a rate, You are not that nice, and quite frankly I give you one thing (after working my a** off to get it for you) and it’s not good enough because you want 5 not 2. Whatever. (BrightEyes you know what this is like) Then it’s like I can put you in one room one night, but you’ll have to move – and they know this when they make the reservation – but when they come to check in it’s ” I wasn’t told I’d have to move” wah wah wah. And I have to get the VDR Preview for 2004 prepared before we can successfully move from 6 bar to 9 bar……it’s a language. I speak hotelian.

The word I’m looking for is….anyways..

The audition on Friday was fine, short, fun – and yah. It was for a national commercial for Chevy Automobiles. They took 4 of us in at a time, we stated our names how tall we were then had to turn to both sides so they could get profiles. Then we pretended to get in a car (4 chairs were set up) and pretended it was “girls night out” and when she said you’re there, we got out of the said car. It was fun, have to say – I got into a bit more and the girls caught up after I started playing around, but what are you gonna do right? It was fun, call backs are tomorrow – which means if they like me they’ll call Cynthia (agent) and if not, they won’t and it will be on to the next thing. I was very tired though. Infact I’m having a moment of didn’t I already write this? sorry if I did.

Had an interesting conversation with Roger Rabbit (gwydion82) Subjects such as using the word “lubricant” in an everyday conversation, in order to avoid peeing in your pants one should remove pants, friends=the ones that stay the same the ones that change with you, good and bad, Purging – why *I* am the last one he wants to bring issues too. And my favorite…Power and how he believes if you take it away you disable one from having control. That was all very interesting. I have to admit I got a little steamed for a second and I asked him if we were having our first fight. He said no, so I guess we didn’t. hahaha. He says he over analyzes things – meh….don’t we all to a degree especially when we care right? And I know, it’s because he cares.

I had a dream about John Mayer the other day. And you know how sometimes you are yourself and sometimes you are the camera and can see yourself….this time I was the camera. I was in the hospital (no I don’t know why) and had bandages on my legs and arms and EVERYONE I’d ever met came to see me. I never woke up for anyone though, I was fine – everyone knew I’d wake up but I just hadn’t yet. So in walks in John Mayer with a plastic bag and his guitar. Sits next to me and starts playing. OF COURSE I WOKE UP. And I looked at him and said “oh no” and he said what? I told him “this means I’m dead” he said no you’re not, you’re right here and you’re going to be just fine. I started to cry and said “no, no way, if YOU’RE here I’m dead.” He laughed at me and grabbed the plastic bag and said ‘wanna spoon?’ and I looked at him and asked “are you gonna crawl up here with me?” he smiled and said…maybe later, but do you want a spoon for this?” and he took mint n chip ice cream out of the bag. I smiled and nodded my head and started eating right out of the carton and he started to play again. Then…as the camera I panned away from the scene. Loved it, Hated it – when he’s in my dreams like that, I wouldn’t mind staying there you know?

I shall be in town this thursday evening. Coming up after work and staying til sunday early evening. Gonna probably hang with Dana Friday day, Going to see Smurf’s play Peter Pan at the Clark Center friday night, then to see Kevin …karaoke_star33… in old arroyo sing. Saturday I may see Roger Rabbit, I may not. I may hang out with mommie but definately SkarieOkie at the Dunes saturday night. I belive lunch/brunch with Jax Sunday – not sure….need to call him…and to see Step-Brandon’s play sunday afternoon at 2pm in Nipomo before heading out. So, that’s that and wonderful wonderful.

Kaza has successfully created her first live journal entry.
kazakahn if you didn’t catch it the other night. Her adventures are beginning and I can’t wait to see how they unfold.

I’m still poor but successfully purchased toilet paper, milk, eggs and some ramen the other day. I miss food – you know GOOD tasting food. Guess it’s what I asked for though huh?

I’m wearing a skirt today at work, and my shoes are killing me. These shoes, the strap used to slide off my heal and now they cut circulation off…guess my feet need to lose weight – never thought of that one.

Catch you Kats Later